What The Fuck..

When I reached home, two angry faces staring at me..

Then bloody asshole.

Don't know which cher called my parents asked them to see him/her this thursday.

That cher very pro.

Caused a quarrel again la..

Then my parents and I never talk at all la..

Cold war.

basket..

Go home, already very motivated to study.

Cause of that cher, say my results lousy to parents.

Scold me, dismotivate me.

Wtf..

That cher don know my family problem, then dont tell anything la.

Wth.. I thought i finallly can have peace, no quarrels with family.

Now created one.

That cher sure very happy...

Nd to give him/her reward.

I hate that cher..

spendthrift..

Today I woke up so early. Iw oke up at 8.30am.

Then online, nothing to do.

Eveniing, I went to punggol plaza to buy things.

Spend a lot of things siia..

notebook and pen = $5.80

Deotarant = $6 plus.. i think.. forget liao

shampoo = $5.90

slipper = $6.90

lip balm = $3.90

Then I thinking is it because i very fan, so i spend a lot of money?

Or cause i want it so i buy?

i also don know.

but then the things i bought like very weird.

Haha..

Don care..

i want to watch fireworks..!!!!

Nothing much to talk..

In the morning, we both chatted till about one or two plus.

My frequent word was ' but then hor '..

Later we both put down the phone.

I slept. and slept.

I overslept by several minutes.

Normal Routine.

I boarded the bus..

Several Minutes kater, I alighted the bus.

Did not saw his presence

So just headed to the school.

Today is fruit day, green apple.

Polished the apple till very shiny.

When I was going for poa class, I passed by his class.

But I did not see him.

Asked chuan kai, where is he.

He said that he don't know too.

After poa lesson, saw him waiting.

I showed my shiny apple to him..

But he did not speak, and was looking gloomy..

Of course i sense that the atmosphere was not right. I asked him what happen,

Did nt really answer the qns.

Did not press on further.

I kept quiet.

He asked me to go eat. But he did not eat.

I was kinda worried.

So I did not eat, I went to buy h2o for myself and him.

Then after that I just sat there, staring at the bio notes.

Can't seem to concentrate well.

Then bio lesson, I felt dull..

Then keep thinking and thinking.

No mood..

Till pratical time, I then began to talk.

Actually I wrote a note for him during bio lesson.

After school, saw him being more cheerful.

So did not give him the note.

Then there was the rock concert.

Quite okay, except that everyone quite irritated by the mike.

Hisham walked out of the performance half way.

syed threw his guitar onto the floor.

Izzat threw his drumsticks on the floor.

Finally waited for his turn.

His singing was marvellous.

I swear.

After that, went to compass to borrow art related books.

Thn went to eat kfc..

Siian, I don't wish to type already..

bfsjdfsfsjdhfsfsdjfgbjnnjjjjjjjjj....!!!!!!!tyfyrg.

Argh..

Later going pp to buy note book and maybe wireless mouse too..

We are going bonkers..

Today the assembly was fun, hilarious.

And the girl who sang, I must really praise her.

Her singing was like wow.

My class were confused by the humanities standerdised test.

We were wondering whether it will tested on Venice or Governance.

In the end, It tested on Venice.

I suppose, not suppose, is confirm that I will fail..

For my art, I started on priming my board.

Going to start drawing on it. Plus adding in the collarge.

After school, I got maths cube.

After maths cube, Joey, Verdell, Russell, Karen and me went to compass point.

We ate yoshinoya.

And we were playing with the soya sauce, the spices i called and verdell miso soup.

haha.. And verdell said it was nice. Is the food really nice or is her tastebud something wrong. I do not know. Verdell you may want to describe the feeling.

Then they told me that I have selective memory and hearing.

Haha. Hey, I was just dreaming, so I did not hear the conversation.

I don;t selective memory and hearing.. Nooooooo. lol.

They dig up the embarassement.. Argh.

We were very high, crazy, exceeding our own limits.

We slack till hm, nearly 7pm.

Then went home, Russell, karen and I took bus 83.

And verdell and Joey took other bus home.

Hey, I guess we all have fun. Don't you agree..

The ghost festival is starting soon.

Shivers**

Tml after school, instead of have my usual afternoon study programme,

I have art tour. Till about 5 to 6 plus.

Then at 7pm, arts student are suppose to go to school for the night study programme.

Argh.

Sure gonna be tired. Not sure is definitely.

Tml chinese free period hahaa...

Complications..

Lets talk about yesterday night, about 11 plus at night.

The same history repeated.

Quarrelled with my mother.

I already told her that I still needed to use laptop.

And she just switch off the wireless modem.

I was sending some stuffs. And she ruined it.

Wth..

I had a cold war till today afternoon.

And after the cold war finished,

another quarrel occurred.

And this time with my father.

Same thing regard.

Barged into my room without knocking and asking permission.

I locked the door, he used a key to dislodge.

Hey, after all its a girl room.

Invading mine privacy.

What the world is gong on here..

He had no rights to barge in like that.

So I now having a cold war with him.

Call me a beggar.. He should looked in the mirror.

Compare the resemblance. Pls, he looked one ok, rather than me..

Shout vulgar at me..

That explains it. He was speechless, dumfounded.

So he had to resort to this uncivilised act.

Thats so lowly.


stop here with the quarrels.

Today I had chemistry lessons.

Learn a lot of new things. I must say who miss the lesson are at a disadvantage.

Me, Verdell and Joey had so much fun.

We were chatting happily, joking here and there.

CHemistry ended, we went to compass.

Saw the 'you hua gan gan shuo' going to shoot at compass point.

First we went to the library.

Don't know why we suddenly talked about mahjong.

I borrowed one book. Reccommend by Verdell.

Then I bought my cd, now still left the other one nt yet bought.

We walked for some time.

Then went to basement. Saw jia loon and rui ze at kfc.

Verdell and Joey went to kfc.

I was tired so I took my leave first.

Saw derrick waiting for bus 86.

The end.. Mahjong craze is on. lol..

But I don't play mahjong...

Ferrero Rocher... lol..

Today is racial harmony day. He fetch me from school today.

He looked good in the enthic costumes. Then I gave him the ferrero rocher.

Only a couple of my classmates wore enthic costumes.

When going to class, I walked past his class, and reminded him to put he chocolate into the fridge.

I went to the compute lab for chinese. The class was given some assignment to do, but I think that no one did it..

When I was going for poa, mr lee called out to me. Asked me to go over. Obviously I did not.

Then he came, I walked away. And he pulled my bag.

Luckily I ran away fast haha.. But Don't know why he called me.

After poa, miss boo tap on my shoulder, pat my head.

Then russell saw, then he asked, does she know?

In fact I do not know anything.

Maybe she already knew.

During recess, I took a picture with russell..

His hands was over my shoulder.. *Blush*

During bio lesson, the whole class had a photo taking craze.

Keep asking miss wong to release us early, take a shot.

Lol..

I had my prelim english oral today.

Mdm heryati said that, my passage reading was good, and had the highest score.

Then for conversation, she said that xue ru, shahidah was good.

She asked me to learn from them.

Then mdm heryati said that I need to elaborate more for my pic conv and put me more vocab.

She taught me a lot of things that I did not learn before.

We were happy chatting.

Helped to put back the chairs, tables.. She asked me why didn't i wear enthic costumes.

Had a casual conversation.

Russell was waiting for me..

Later we went to see the softball match, and we played softball..

They said that my catching was good except for my throws..

GOne home, aligted and went to pp to buy bubble tea..

That hit from the ball to my stomach, actually it hurts a lot, I am just putting a brave front..

Don't know whether your face alright a not.

Being hit by that ball is a torment of pain.

just talking craps here..

Now in mother tongue class using the computer in the computer lab.

Lets talk about yesterday.

I had my napha, which means i re run, even though many of my friends disencouraged me..

But I am glad that i did eventually. I ran in 13.44mins.

I broke my record.

On cloud nine. The digits still lingers in my mind.

He bought for me food and h2o drink again..

Chatted happily.

He sent me to the bus stop after school.

I was in the daze during the whole journey, resulting I forgot to alight.

In the end, I had a long walk back home..

At around seven or eight plus, my dad called me, and asked me to meet him downstairs ten mins later, to help him carry some stuff..

And the some stuffs are GOLF CLUBS!!, my dinner and his bag..

I thought that he had neglected his golf for a long time, but in th end, I believed that he was still obssesed in his golf.

Then when I reached home, I went to punggol plaza with my mum.

I bought ferrero rocher for him.. and a packet of sweet for myself..

At at later time, we chatted happily, laughing and singing. haha..

He claims that my singing was good, but I myself knew that my singing is horrible..

But his singing was nice,

Although it was peculiar of us, singing to each other, but we had fun..

T^H^E E^N^D

What I dreamt during the afternoon.. spooky..

i dreamt that our school is in chaos...

fighting and killing..

wth guns..

then me and joey ran for my life..

then gt somebody want to shoot joey

so i pick up a gun.. keep shooting at ppl..

then the head drop.. blood splurged out

then quickly ran. and hide.

untill police come..

we want go back and take our things.

then saw sgt fong.. told him that my bag gt one gun

then afther that heard valerie say that she don't dare to take her bag, cos got a head there..

then after that i don't look at the head and take my nag..

then gt one part, a bit blur.. so skip on that one..

then went i go homme, i witnesss an accident..

i call out to sis that we aid them..

then ppl kp calling police..

But nobody help to stop the bleeding of the victim, everybody just keep calling, calling..

then i got hime, i slept well.. the next day..

joey asked me whether i slpet well. i said yes.

but my yes began to ponder me..

i got sleepless night thinking about the ppl i killed

the head all droppped..

the spirits are going to find me for revenge..

Then i woke up, realise that is just a dream. But so realistic..


Thanks for buying me drink, and waiting for me, and sending me to the bus stop..

Pissed Off

Early in the morning, at 3 ++ am..

Quarrel with my that stupid, idoitic, cretin dad..

Then When i woke up in the morning, we quarrel over a set of television..

Then afternoon, quarrel over telephone..

What the hell..

Let get this clear. He was the one who started it all..

I don't even intend to bicker with him.

Later I quarrel with him, is because my temper is at the maximum..

Cannot tolerate any more of his obstinate thoughts.. opinion. temper..

Today, I don't know what came over me..

I just can't seem to focus and concentrate on one thing.

Argh..

My mood are so down..

Down Down Down..

I wonder what if i turned bonkers one day..

What If I become mentally unstable

Ya,,, Ya.. I am being too sensitive and imaginative.,

Whatever..

ENd..

Boring

Yesterday, I waited for his reply till about 2 plus in the morning..

Then finally decided to sleep.

I woke up, the house was still quiet. The usual commotion was gone.

Today, I studied with a lot of distractions.

So its only half-bucket.

Actually just now my godmother want to visit me and family of course.

But in the end, no more..

Quite sad.

Its had beena long time since I saw my godmother and godfather for a long time.

Tomorrow, not going liao.. Grounded.

Don't know if I should beg my mother.

But I cared about my pride and dignity. So its a major decision.

Have to wait till Monday to see him.

Quite miss him although we still sms each other..

Monday have maths standerdised test. Argh. Testing on probability and other chapters..

Must study. Can't afford to fail.

Must at least show some achievements to my parent.

I predict my mother will say one sentence..

" YOur marks will be inconsistent, don't be too happy"

Heard her saying this sentence countless of times..

No surprise If she said that again..

I have no dinner. My mother nv cook..

Actually I wanted to buy pizza.

In the end, I got scolded by my father for nothing..

Hey, i am the one who is paying, not him.

Why should he scold me..

And I am the one who will be ordering.

Why should he care so much.

What a busybody, cretin...

somebody called my hp., but I lazy to answer. Lol..

Now have to think how to settle my dinner..

Should I continue order pizza, or just buy take away, or order something else?

I WANT TO RE_RUN MY NAPHA!!!

Re run, re run.. re run!!! Don't bother about me, I am crapping..

Thank you Mr Nazri and Russell.. And those who cared for me..

Just remember I know why my leg was shaking. Verdell said that there was a ghost, a child, sitting on my lap.. Not my first encounter though, but thats explain why my legs were shaking..

I woke up, get ready for school.. Realised that the headache was not hurting anymore..

Took a bus as usual, read story book on the bus.

When I alight the bus, I did not saw russell. So I went to school first..

Observe his class for long period of time, I was wooried that he was waiting for me at the bus stop.

I went up to the hall, then karen told me he was here.. Glad that he was late for school..

He came up to me, ask me whether I am feeling better.

I merely replied and gave him the book.. Then bid farewell..

When going down for recess, he waited for me.. So we went down together with karen and verdell..

What an unlucky.. Mr lee and ba gay was infront of us.. Verdell and karen shouted mr lee.! He turned around and gosh he saw me and him walking tog.

His smile looks cunning..

When going home that time, karen told me that mr nazri was very worried about me yesterday, don't dare to leave me alone till I was feeling better.

I was quite touched that there was a teacher who actually cared for me, worry for me.. If other teachers were like him, that would be good..

When I reached home, Sms.. Then knew that Mr lee asked russell during the ss/his lesson, how is jia hwei.. And guess what, he told me that mr lee sang my name in his class...

Ruin my beautiful name.. Argh..

Miss yeow tested me on my oral conversation, partly about family.. I have nth to talk about my family, and I don't wish to talk about my family.. Thats why I failed the trial.


I HATE MY FAMILY!!

I borrowed bks from the library, once again its about crime cases, homicide.. detective.. lol..

Talking about yesterday, 13/7

Had my napha.. Run half way through, I wanted to vomit 2 times..

Then my right hand side, above the stomach was hurting..

Then I had difficulty breathing..

But I don't care I just ran..

when I reach the ending point.. I collaspe onto the ground.. My head was too hurting..

Then I close my eyes and open again.. The image was blurred and I felt dizzy..

Ten I stood up to walk, I was like a drunken girl, walking in a s shape..

Reach school, I collaspe on the chair. With my head down and eyes closed..

Mr nazri came asked me whether I am alright. Cared for me.. Asked me to drink water, lean back, don't close my eyes..

Asked me whether I wan to go home..

Later on, Mr nazri saw that I am better, he left.. Juan hui came.. Cared for me too.. \

Karen was there fanning me.. My legs were shaking vigourously... Karen saw too..

Then russell came. Cared for me too.. He bought for me something to eat.. Helped me carry my bag, escort me to english lesson..

Thanks a lot..

I did not went for art, went home and rest.. When I woke up, my head was still hurting all the way to at night..

I @m nO lOnG3r sOliTude..

Its been quite a few days since i last blogged.

Muggling with many homeworks and revision.

Yup. I have started my revision. But its only for 2 subjects, namely chemistry and biology.

I know that its not enough.

But I had planned my timetable for revision.

All under control.

The days where I did not blog, I quarreled with my mother once again.

Just now too. But I am not in the wrong.

I took the initiative to translate what my bro said, not only she did not appreciatiate, she scolded me.

Hey, am I in the wrong? Absolutely not.

I had been eating instant noodles for the past few days. Like just now, I ate instant mee hoon for my lunch.

I am malnutritioned.

After I blog this entry, I going to study..

Not forgetting to do my homework too.

I changed my blogskin with the help of dear.. =)

End..