Never say die

Welcomr aboard my new fringe. Finally I got a neat hair.

Zeesan str8 just cut my hair because they knew what I wanted.

Regular patron I guess.

But this time I asked my fringe to be different.

So I dont know what style they were cuting for me.

Full of anticipation.

I am so glad my fringe is not as messy anymore. Totally love it.

Much thicker. Yipee.

Went to compass to see a doctor because I am still having fever and my medicine had finished.

I had developed rashes also.

Yeah. So I got medicine for my running nose, cough, fever, antibiotics and rashes cream.

Cost my dad $67. He was looking at the receipt.

My mother and dad had just won money from 4D.

And I am always the one who always spend it all,

but on medical expenses.

Wahaha.

Constantle reminder from my dad, that I had poor health since young, totally irritates me.

Still I excel in sports. Lala. Lolx.

Asthma, weak immune system, nah..

Still clinch gold for napha with full 5 marks for each section.

and not those just nice 5 marks.

sec 4, 182 for standing board jump,

13 mins for 2.4.

52 for sit and reach.

pull up and sit ups just did nice, lolx.

Primary school badminton team,

2 art club.

guides, commander.

Nothing gonna stop me from achieving what I want.

I will not give up my passion, my desires.

I am going to strive all the way.

So what I fall sick easily, and when i fall sick there is complications.

I am not going to give up just like that

I am just like a cockroach. You spray me you step me, but hey I am still alive and kicking.

Not till I raise the white flag.

Now once I have the morning, wake boarding here I come!!!!

Perhaps I want to try sky diving too. Waha.

Anyone interested to join me?

Fever and Flu=Darn!

After a long rest, I felt much better.

My eyes dont feel pressurized anymore.

But my fever, I know it will take a long time to recover.

38.2 degrees.

And virus infection for me always never was so easy to recover.

Hopefull I will get better before monday.

And I need a hair cut.

My hair is so thick. And I wanna change a new style for my fringe.

Sis said that I look good in flat fringe.

Baby asked me to try.

But what if it turns ugly.

My fringe tend to be bouncy when its short.

So after I cut my fringe flat, will it be bouncy again?

Or should I continue the old way of my fringe?

I am confused. I need more suggestions.

Argh~! Needa some ideas.

I am craving for beancurd with sesame tang yuan.

Hot piping one, adding with one cup of sweet soya milk.

Oh, I just want it so much.

And I miss Baby so much. Glad he can't slp, he called me,

so we are chatting now, hehex.. Muacckks.

And I want to go out with all my friends, but must wait till I recover from my fever and flu.

And not forgetting Baby too~

Holidays!

This is what i wore to the outing with baby mummy, relatives and cousins.

Though it been think 5 days after the outing.

Watch 12 lian hua. Lolx.

A great day out. Lolx.

Now exams is over, I am quite worried about my dnc.

Only that module, I knew that I did real badly.

Hope I will pass.

Str8 after exam, I fell sick.

Now having bad flu.

A little bit feverish too.

Think its back to the virus infection alrdy..

Sigh.

What is life meant to be?

Jia Hwei has broke down again.

I can't tolerate any much longer.

Why I am so dumb to give in and cause him to make same mistake repeatedly again and again.

Can only blame it on me.

It's my fault, I nvr was impt.

Or should i blame it on him because he neglect me too much in the past for his friends, games?

I hate gamers. I swear I hate them. Gamers who neglect loved ones for games and friends.

In sg, singaporeans who are females all reject gamers strongly. Because of those particular reasons.

I swear I will hate him if he touch any game.

To hell to those who call him and ask about game, to hell those who instigate him to play games esp new releases.

I don't know why my life sucks.

Friends are the only one who will think of me, discuss stuff with me, rmb what i've said, wont go ahead onto smth without me. Won't neglect me. I am grateful to them. At least I feel the importance there.

Sry daryl for losing my cool on you though I know you wont be looking at this.

I am such a bad friend I guess.

Careless Mistakes That I Couldn't Afford

Kinda hate myself for all those careless mistake.

For indec, at least just one question but ard 15 or less marks gone.

For maths, so many careless think ard 20-25 marks gone.

Hope will moderate and I can still sustain an A for my maths.

Hopefully. Pray Hard*

Now left Dnc and Mp,

No more careless mistake please. Now I must really look at the question read the question properly.

Class study today at 12pm again.

Been hardworking.

Hopefully I can score very well in this sem.

And I really wish it would happen, really~

Going to start on my revision on Dnc soon enough I bath and switch off my laptop.

Gambate to me and everyone who is mugging.

That includes baby too~.

He is now sleeping like a pig I reckon.

Gonna meet him to school tmr, but will be separated in school.

He will be studying with his friends, while I study with my lovely peeps.

Baby finally hardworking now. Yipee..

Finally he started his revision earlier than last time.

I love baby and my lovely peeps~

Pathology

My lappy and speaker.

The whole day was using lappy instead of doing work.

But actually revise till exact. At least better than nothing. Last revision.

Hopefully I this sem got a great improvement for my gpa. Lolx.

Watch pathology, at first I feel like puking after watching few mins.

Because all the sound of cutting up the human ribs all those gave me creeps.

But after a while I was mentally prepared I watch again .

and this time while I was eating my dinner.

I dare anyone to eat while they watch the show Lolx.

Its gross but somehow I got used to it.

Lolx.

Jia You

Took a candid shot of grace and marilyn.

Think they still are in the dark. Hahax.

What a nice weather today.

So cooling,

Finally study finish my maths and indec.

But I gonna have the last revision of those two module.

Then I would start the headache module. Argh!

Hopefully I can understand. Jia YOu!

productive days ahead.

Took this in the tutorial room
Acting retarded. Lolx.
Really am so bored
Wonder how would I like In short hair.

Met up with grace, desmond and ray at the mrt station.

Then yesh, we had a class study.

Raymond joined in, meow, marilyn, kai, kk.

Productive..

At least I left heaviside to do, which is that I will finish by tonight.

Then I will start a new revision for indec and maths again to refresh.

Class study tmr again,

Going to start on Dnc.

Its way too theorical and there is lots to memorise.

For goodness sake..~.

Lucky I had my notes copied half of the book.

Just needa copy the rest. Well good luck to me.

And gambate to all A5 peeps and baby too.

So now, off to study. =)

Sleepy~

Here I am again.

TOday would be doing maths.

Actually started ytd already.

Now at exact equation.

Been practising all over again.

Hopefully can sustain the A in maths.

Crucial~.

Start at a earlier time today,

perhaps by today I can finish my maths with less distractions of course.

But I still feel so sleepy.

yawning all the way.

Baby still sleeping,

He has a headache.

But think he would be awake soon for his dinner.

Gambate

Reporting on my progress.

Hmm.. Now at sensor already.

Left PLC, battery and pid then i am done.

But have to revise one last time for everything.

Then I will proceed to maths.

My cousin more handsome le. lolx.

His dressing different from last time.

How I wish it is new year now.

Or christmas,

Just any occasion will do.

I wanna party out of the sudden.

Lolx. Just crazy one. Lolx

What A Day For Me

Have to start studying for the upcoming exams.

Though I just started on sunday.

But hell now, I am only at chapter 2 on indec.

Seriously have to miss my ming zhong ding wo ai ni

For my studies, well, no choice.

Tension and stress level.

Getting on my nerves seriously.

One week study break, then off to work.

My handphone is irritating me,

when I was about to reply message,

she just love to restart by itself.

Not sure whether it had just infected with some virus.

Feel like doing some consrtuctive work again after I had my revision.

How I wish laptop would not distract me,

How I wish my butt can stay onto the chair.

How I wish my eyes could bet set fixed on the piles of notes.

How I wish I could focus.

My fringe is getting longer again.

My hair is growing thicker and thicker like some sort of bush.

My brother off to national camp.

And I didnt get a chance to tell him off for deleting DJ Max.

Now I have no games to play.

Online games, like miniclip,

seriously bore me.

I want to play the Sims, but my lappy does not support the format.

The day is just hinting me that I should proceed with my studies asap.

Yeah, fine, have to submit to fate.

Ciaos

I love them

I look femine in this. Like dots?
I look like a doll.
At least some normal human picture.

Lying on my bed,

was fighting against html code.

But forget it, I never gonna make it right.

Day spent with baby's relatives was awesome.

Great laugh,

thanks for the ride and the tai yang biscuits from baby's xiao gu gu.

Yeah, been going out more often with baby, his mummy and relatives

The feeling that they have me was like a home.

Warm and approchable.

Yes, I am envious.

Being so close with the cousins and relatives.

The only cousins that I kept in contact with is darren,valerie, mei mei, celest.

And how I wish I can keep in contact with boy boy and vincent.

Which I can have someone to call as kor kor.

I got no jie jie, so forget it.

The lady who is older than me by a few years,

I have to call her ah hua yi?

and I dont know why.

And I just contacted boy boy like finally?

Though yeah, doreen ah yi will bring me and my siblings out with valerie and darren.

But still they are too young to have my thoughts share with them.

Like a heart-to-heart one.

Vincent, he's way too shy?

We would only communicate through sports.

Use to compete with him with badminton.

But now, sigh. It's been a long long time.

And boy boy,

was so close with him last time, because I always go his house to vist my ah ma.

then when my ah ma move in,

the trip to his house stop.

But nvm, we are slolwy in contact.

Somehow I just want to say I love my cousins,

the mei and the di,

I love my kor kor, though i call him boy boy last time.

I love the effort that all my aunt did for me.

I am grateful to them,

not forgetting to buy gift for me when they are abroad.

Grateful to them for always bringing me out for more exposure.

Grateful to them for caring me, be patient with me

when I rmb I was such a nuisance when I was young at po po house.

Keep making trouble because I was way too mischievious.

And I was the only one who likes to stir trouble.

I am grateful that my gu gu nvr scold me when I ransack kor kor cabinet for soft toy.

Grateful that uncle simon always asked me about my studies.

I love all my relatives..

Not forgetting my godmother and godfather.

They treat me very good, though I seldom see them,

But I know they still care for me.

And while smsing my godmother to wish her happy birthday,

we promised to arrange and meet up

Seriously I miss her and the heart to heart talk.

And baby is sure to find his name inside my entry, so

Baby I love you too.

Thanks for enduring all my nonsensical stuff.

Thanks for compromising my temper.

Thanks for your love.

Love you..

Headache

Tension Headache is cause by a change in sleep routine,

And I am one of the victim.

Severe headche just because I stay up late till 5am.

And because I am used to sleeping early now,

the sudden change in the routine trigger these.

This is what I research.

But at least I feel much better, though it still hurts.

What a headache.

I don't know why I just love researching, and I love to ask questions

I really hope to be in the medical field.

To research new medicine, research new cure,

Diagnose for prevention.

Invent new equipment for better accuracy diagnose.

Accurate detection.

Nurses now a days are not really having their patients as priority.

Thinking back just trigger the rage in me.

Sigh.

I am happy

I am bored..

Today just went to order one bermudas for baby.

Hope it look really nice in reality.

I was hoping to do some constructive work today.

But I have totally no idea what shall I do.

Perhaps clear my shelf? Pack my room?

Yeah. Right after I use finish laptop, finish surfing net.

Lolx. No, I am not making excuses.

Lolx.. Short break is finally here.

I want to go out with dell, ah hui.

Agreed some time back but in the end never meet up.

So this time it's a must.

=)..

And I am looking forward giving the bermudas to baby. Lolx.

Thursday, I love it

I got a new calculator few days back from my mother.

Quite surprising.

And I swear I would never place the calculator cover into the bag in the exam hall.

The cover is just like a shell,

It protects for an example crab.

A crab without it's shell, can't possibly live with all the predators lurking around to savour it's next lunch.

Just like a calculator, without the cover,

one would accidentally switch on the power button,

and left it on unknowingly for few hours.

By then the batteries are almost depleted.

And if that person is so down on hs or her luck that day,

sat in the exam hall,

with the paper starting,

and just realised his or her calculator is out of batt.

How unfortunate that is.

I wouldn't want this incident to happen to me.

Neither those who takes their exams seriously.

And the things that make me happy today,

is ....*drum roll*

I drank milk.

Ya, i know it's kinda crappy.

I drank it because I had to drink something strong in flavour to cover that bitterness of the pill for fever.

And that milk that I drank is no ordinary milk.

It's sweet and yummy.

It's condensed milk.

People going for taste should go for condensed milk.

But people going for the nutrition facts should go for the original milk from the cow or goat.

It varies. For me, hmm.. Depends on what situation.

Lolx. Going back to copy my notes for comm skill.

Kinda last min as the paper is this upcoming friday.

So yeah, the end. Lolx

Tired

My mummy told me,

last year at china,

wai gong had breathing difficulties.

He can breathe out but cannot breathe in,

And he now fall down,

he hurt his leg.

Lucky my relatives all behind him, prevent another great fall.

Finally tmr can see my baby.

I want a big big hug.

My mother finally bank in my money le.

But bank in half only, Lolx.

save more money. Hehex

Job Hunting

Yo Yo Yo.

Boring day as usual.

Except that I am really lazing around.

The whole night was vomiting.

Damn sickening, ruin my day.

I have to sit up and sleep.

Darn.

Woke up, looking at the med in front of me make me totally sick.

So I test my temperature, I was so glad.

I can stop eating the pills for fever.

Thinking of that, it gave me goosebumps.

I just suck the pill for throat.

For the flu one, I skip one round of it. Because my flu really got better.

Really. (finding excuses to just stop eating).

Ya, but i am much better now.

But after sneezing for the past few days, now I turn to coughing.

Yeah, perhaps the whole house, my pillow everything covered with the cough virus.

And yeah, my sister just went to hug my pillow.

Oops. Wahaha.

I finally can smell my pillow, my nose is kinda clear now.

I want to save money.

Just went to check my accounts monthly one.

My expenses are high, revenue are low.

I'm back to square one.

Lucky I learn to be thrifty.

I am not tempted by those top or snack.

Snack can really cost you a lot.

Whenever I can, I try to bring water bottle.

Yes, I recently fill it up with plain water.

And I think i need 3 days to finish one bottle which is less than 500ml.

Yes you can see I totally abhor plain water.

It taste so yucky.

The only time when I really drink more than 2 bottle 500ml of water is the hike from macRitchie reservoir to bukit timah hill.

Yes, we went through pipes, construction side, grass full of trees like jungle.

Walking up through many flight of stairs.

And the whole hike is like more than 2-3hours.

At that moment, I think plain water is heavenly.

Now just so yuck.

Anyway what I am trying to say is I want to save more money.

Long winded I know. Lolx.

My target savings for this year is 1k.

but its 12423526145 months long.

Slowly ba.

First step, after sem exam job hunting here i come. Lolx.

Messy

Everything fine now.

Though he asked me not to copy for him anymore,

but yeah, I still copied.

Don't care. Hmph.

Lucky he realise he's been treating me bad,

or else I will be sad for these few days.

My bro, zhi huan they all has a high possibility of getting through the sudition.

Heard the teachers gave them excellent remarks.

Kudos. Now I just curious "joyjoy"answers.

Hahax. She might be my bro gf some day.

Lolx. I know one thing for sure my mum going to nag.

Hope jocelyn and my bro will last long long if her answer is positive.

Sister say flat fringe is suitable for me.

Last time also got ppl say b4.

So should I try?

I also need a hair cut, my hair are so thick and frizzy.

Damaged hair. Bad hair day almost everyday.

Tmr going to slot baby notes and past year paper in the letter box since I can't step into his house.

And going to pack my room shelf.

Self evaluation, realising that the house is in a mess.

Esp when exams are around the corner.

Tend to be a little out of hand.

好难过的一天。

佳慧倒下了。

我终于受不了。

这几天真的好痛苦。

但幸好我有很多好朋友在一旁支持我。

是我这几天的开心果。

这几天“他”一直对我发脾气。

好像另一个人似的。

完全不理解“他“。

我只可以默默地忍受，

一句也不吭声。

脆弱的我，

好难受。

我知道身为明源的女朋友，

我必须了解他。

我也做到了，我的坏脾气也渐渐地改了。

反而，他的脾气。唉。他对我好冷默。

我也认了。

我为了他，熬夜。

但他不知情就不不分青红皂白就说了我几句。

我帮他抄笔记，我自己的呢？

我都还没动到。

原本计划先抄好明源的笔记，

然后再抄我的。

但因为时间太短，

我必须熬夜，

不然我就不用为我的考试而读书了。

因为熬夜，我生病了。

那他是不是应该说，

辛苦你了，？

但他没有。

我有什么选择？

知好认下这口悲伤。

我的心碎了。

Lessons to learn in life

Something to share.

Lessons to learn in life

There may be times,

Throughout your life when

The road begins to wind and turn;

And it seems like the only way is to take a short cut.

Don't. In the long run, seeing things through does count.

Sometimes you may feel as if you cannot go on

Because things are not going your way;

So you begin to turn around and travel backwards.

Stop. Always look forward, towards the future.

Often, when changes occur in life,

People are afraid-

They want things to stay the same;

And so they build a wall, protecting them from change.

Accept. The only things that proves itself constant in life is change.

The future will prove itself challenging,

But it is human nature to fear a challenge:

So you may choose to avoid challenges in life.

Persist.These challenges will only make you stronger.

When you look back at your life and

Everything you have been through and accomplished,

You may regret certain things you have done,

Or have failed to do so.

Learn. Mistakes and regrets can only teach you what you must change,

And in the future, you may not have so many regrets.

Don't take short cuts in road of life; what is meant to be will be.

Stop before you trackback too far;

But always remember that there is time to re-trace your steps.

Accept the things you cannot change;learn to live with them,

And make the best out of them.

Persist challenge you face;

They will indeed make you stronger and more understanding.

Learn from your mistakes; vow to have no regrets.

And above all, don't sweat over the small stuff/s!

好痛苦

我好困。但我又睡不着。

我覺得好空虚。

不知为何拥有如此的感受。

可能最近心情好低落吧。

Sigh. Absent minded.

I hate myself for being so forgetful.

I now still considering whether to skip lecture on monday.

Because that is the only lesson i have on monday.

Lecturer had not gone thru finish what he was suppose to teach.

But should I go?

I am in a fix.

I want to go over baby house, but can I?

I don't know how tradition states.

My dad say he will buy me a book on the chinese traditions for any occasion.

I seriously need it.

I miss baby now.

I feel so distracted.

I am now copying notes for baby comm skill, but somehow I just cant concentrate at all.

I had hunger pangs for a few days alrdy.

ytd drink mushroom soup, many cans of drinks and fries.

Today, one slice of pizza, one can of pepsi, and 2 packets of bandung.

I know baby will get mad.

But seriously, though I know i having hunger pangs,

but Im really not hungry at all.

Has my stomach shrink?

Or I have lost the sense of hunger.

I know I'm not myself these days.

Perhaps time. I need time.

Sudden, too sudden.

What happen to me

Now in class, having part of the lab finish early.

Thus have some spare time.

Now a days had been so absent minded.

Ytd almost forgotten my hp,

Today I forgot my watch.

And the worst I forgot that today got school.

Till baby ask me go slp cause got school tmr.

Then I rmb.

What have gotten into me lately.

Sigh

Grieve

Using the time to have a quick update on this blog.

Because I don't feel like using any at home.

Not that I'm busy all what.

But I utterly has no mood to do anything.

Studies too, till baby has to scream at me and urge me to do.

Causing him more trouble.

Baby been busy. Couldnt see him much.

Have to understand him but still I would feel terrible of course.

But no choice. But have to thank ah hui and daryl.

And ah hui ar, if you got look at my blog hor,

what I wanna say is, you ar. better quit ****.

Your health is impt.

I dont want lose another loved one.

Understand ma?

Can't afford any lost liao.