Good day today

Went to cut my hair short. Because I got sick of long hair.

Today am in urhs for time, needa do my speech and revise. I am still at ecta.

I only finished till tutorial 3. Now i am gg to revise all over again till tutorial 3 and make sure i understand.

But i needa do speech first.

Now this blog is just me. I feel much relaxed with nobody viewing.
In due time, i will re publish it.
Ming yuan hide things from me again. The 3rd time..
I am very sick of it. I am really tired. I wish to free myself.
I want freedom. I just want my studies. I want to go overseas for attachment.
To let go of myself.

Better go do my speech now. night everybody who are sleeping early.

Depressed

Why am i always the one putting up with his lies, with his insensible actions.
He claims he is sensitive, but did he think of me?
Wont I feel sensitive too?
I can say he treat other girls better than how he treated me.
He lied to me twice.
He dont like me to go clubbing but yet he went to pubs and went to a club for clubbing.
He dont like me to drink beer. I didnt drink.
But i dont like him to drink yet he drank.

I dont like to be tickled, yet he always tickle me.
He dont like his nose to be touched, i touched it he yelled at me.
He don allow me to sleep on the bus but he never did care whether i was really tired.
He always create a disturbance by playing psp while i was paying attention to lecture.

He neglects me because of his friends.
He always go over his friend house to play game or ton.
Resulting less time to spend with his family and now ended with regret.
He lied to me twice. hide the truth upon inquesting by me.

He only know how to condemn me, and nothing sort of praises come out from his mouth for me.
Tasmanian was the only gift i received from him.
He always complain when i want to go town.
He insulted the girls in singapore.
He insulted my friends even before knowing them.

Why am i the one who suffered the hurt.
Ray thought that we still look okay today even after i told him what i have suffered.
Because he still see me holding hand with my bf hugging him.
On the surface we looked on, but deep inside, hidden lies burrowed from passerby.

After so much promises, he still did the same thing. I really hate myself for being such a wimp.
To think i still buy him such an expensive stuff for him. Went to search high and low for the file he wanted. I can buy my own tops for a matter of fact but why am i so dumb to even buy things fro him.
Am i for his beck and call? Am i a dog for him to inflict pain on me.

Where is the happiness you promise me. If not i found out htat tag perhaps i wpould be hidden in his lies once again. Promises are meant to be broken and emptied?

anyway i am changing no. Will let my friends know in due time. And perhaps i am making this blog private..

I hate unfaithful guys!

Went out to meet ray first at ps.

We went to find a place at star buck enough for 4 person to study.

Then chatted a while before i went to buy drinks for both of us.

Ray helped both of us to take care of our bags.

We chatted again and studied then while waiting for marilyn and alina.

Ray keep looking at girls. Zzz. then i ask him he is come study or look at girls lolx.

But somehow was studying halfway, i got distracted by one caucasians.

He looks cool with that shade. And another caucasian was naked upper body at ps there.

But i didnt noticed till ray told me.

Then alina came first. She cut new hair. Then soon marilyn came.

I only studied till tutorial 3 yet to finished.

At 5 plus, alina left, then ray marilyn and I stopped studying at 6pm. And we chatted before we separated.

But marilyn and I went walking. She accompanied me to go walk. Then i suggested that we settle our stomach. So we went dunno what jap restaurant.

She ordered dunno what sotong as side dish which is superb, and also tom yam ramen.
I ordered silver fish and spicy ramen.
We took a long time to eat finish because we were practically chatting. lolx. After we finished eating we continued to chat. Had a lot of laughter.

Then we slowly headed way home. Lolx. had super great time. Thanks ray for explaining those formulas that i am confused about.. A lot to study and i need extra revision after i done all the tutorial to let me understand more.

Tmr staying at home, chiong all the way. Decided not to met any unfaithful guy.

%^$@^#*@^

This is what I found in a girl blog tag by that unfaithful ming yuan
He claim that he and the girl are sisters.
So, is that what a bf tag to other girls.
Then shouldnt i claim that that guy and I are brothers and do the same thing.
Utterly piss off. ____him la.
That why i said he love to make some actions or tease girls to attract their attention.
At least i didnt. Even ppl look at me, or had a crush on me, i dont do anything to attract their attention.

___ don even know english. I ask him where is he now.

He tell me reaching. Who in the hell will know where he is, didnt even reply anytihng related.

Perhaps he trying to lie to me again. Ppl normally will say i am now at blah blah blah.

He seriously don know how to msg in detail always trying to avoid.

Who knows there is any more stuff that he lied to me.

Anyway don let a ______ _____ ruin my happy mode.

Had fun in night class, chatted with alina about the past and friends

lolx. when i was in the loo i thought alina intended to peep into my cubicle. Lolx.

But she was just want to tell brenda that the cubicle i am in has a loose door.

Brenda wanted to try to peep inside too. Lolx. Lucky i was finished by then . Lolx.

Brenda suddenly got high and was at the back laughing. Lolx. But dunno whats the commotion about. Lolx.

When i alighted from 83, my sister called and somehow we cant communicate due to phone probs. Restarted phone, finally, bump into my mum. and we walked very long.. Zzz. Saw wild mushrooms, my mum keep talking about hnd and hk. I wanna go there next time with my siblings pehaps.

Don want the ___ to go. Rather have OWN FAMILY AND RELATIVES to go with me and tour around. So fun, and i can do anyting i want.

Tmr gg out to study with just ray alina and marilyn. The rest cant make it. But nvm, ray saviour at least stronger than me. maybe after that go meet my sis, or if not i go alone ya just me alone to go kinokuya and buy her dictionary and also top, because my sis gg to borrow one of my top to KL. so needed buy a replacement.

I dont want to buy bag anymore. Because its a waste of money. and i don see a point that i shld buy.

Tough day

Today lab test, i know where i shoud change the code, i know what the sign.
but i just dunno whether i should put it. My undecisiveness cause me to get only a grade of B.
Baby get B too. he helped me for the back color. That one i really did forgot.
Sigh, really disappointed for myself. Though question 1 code i done, is the question 2 code. Dumb me.
But baby quite strong in c sharp last sem. Because gamer ma last time.. Sigh.. Don mention about game anymore.
Nvm, my first quiz i got 19/20. think i should get an A overall for now.
For oop , there is still lab test 2 and quiz 2. There is also mini project.

mat lab i got the answer. but value wrong. Cause forget to use the formula. But yeah i done it. Wee..
Going start my revision on weekends. Jia you jia hwei.

And my project.. Zzz spend nearly two hours before someone heard me on the radio at 108MHZ.
Zzz. I keep hello hello hello all the way. Thanks brenda and alina for saving me. Omg la..

Gambate

After school went to research carrel to meet up with the other team mates.

He keep say i really cannot make it, this time you guys have to help me.

But somehow he is so insincere, he left halfway to meet his god sis i think.

While both me and baby stayed to finish. I left the last part so i took a break.

Baby done finish alrdy too. Left the stupid dinosuar everything also have not done yet.

Plus presentation is this coming monday. He still haven not done his speech. Though i left with the last part and my speech, i am able to do it during weekends. Because there is a class study too.

So its convenient. Anyway my common test start next week friday.

I haven start yet. Because this week been busy with a lot of project assignment ppt test and lab test.

I just finished noting down the meaning of the code for oop in the book but yet to revise for tmr oop lab test. All the best to my anyway.

Later have to continue to draw the tiny weeny graph and do the fourier transform equation.

I wan to depend on myself for the question. as a revision.

I hurt my hand while i broke a cup. My fingers was pierced by the pieces of glass.

The side of my right palm was slit by the glass too. As well as my left wrist near the operation scar.

Bleeding profusely because it was a deep cut. Applied my first aid knowledge and manage to stop the bleeding and there was no infection. Kudos to me.

Baby sleeping now, he slept for a couple of hours while me i slept for less than an hour. Because i was burning midnight oil for the inddes article. Somehow i want some accomplishment. I want the sensation, and how am i gg to get it? Study hard and get at least a b for all module. just like how i did last sem common test. 2 as and one b. jia you jia hwei.

Sorry baby

Some pics taken by baby at ice monster.

And introducing fried fish skin from dunno hk or hnd. And juicy jelly from also dunno hk or hnd

For the fried fish food. Its very crispy and not oily at all. Sweet light salted taste that is sure appetising.

For the jelly, be warn not to spill the juice at the very moment you tore the package across.

The juice just flow out. The one in the pic is blueberry. The juice and the jelly taste sweet.

Its suitable for ppl who has sweet tooth and craving fo smth sweet.

I also ate the orange flavour one, however i didnt take a picture of it.

There is a real orange int he orange flavour. Juicy too.

But preferably, i would choose blueberry. Because i am into orange.

I have save some black pepper pork for baby and auntie. Of course, save some for my friends.. Ah hui dell i save some for both of you too.. Lolx. Hid it somewhere alrdy. Lolx.

Bought from hnd. My parents gg abroad this december again. And next march too.

Busy month again. How i wish i could tag along, because i could taste the delicacy and of course the scenery and the culture.

Grace sent me mathew answer or the graph.

When i saw the graph i was in shock.

How am i gg to draw it onto the paper. SO so so tiny.. OMG..

Have to squint many sine waves into a small ting graph box.

Definitely going to sleep late tonight. Gonna study for oop lab test

then revise ecta. Tmr gg out alone to buy organisers for baby and I. and perhaps gg to find anouther tee for him.

Because the previous tee i gave to baby has been smudge by black ink.

and its all because of me. Sigh. I know he is heartbroken.

So i am g to make it up for him Though nothing can replace the first tee gave to him.

But i hope he would still keep it in a box and keep it as a memory. Sweet uh~

miserable

Thats the leather shoe and the top and the peanut puff.

Today had internet computing test.

Hopefully all my derive is correct and all the code is correct.

At least give me a good grade.

Today release early, urge baby to go walk with me.

I wanted to buy a top.

Went to yishun espirit.

Nothing caught my eye

But baby said that the turtle neck one look nice.

I tried it out, and baby said its nice.

However i did not buy because somehow its too long and a bit big for me.

Maybe one day i will reconsider again.

Went home after that.

Ytd i was studying internet computing whole night so i was worn out by the end of the day.

Wanted to sleep. but baby wouldnt let me.

So ended up quarrel.

i am still somehow brooding over that he lied and the truth from me twice.

I hate ppl who lied to me.

those who are close with me will know.

I am facing anger and hurt. Really just wish i can head down and buy some liquor.

December is arriving soon. Its time to buy new clothes for new year.

christmas coming soon too. A5 gonna have a gathering at grace house.

Looking forward to it..

worried

My parents just called my sister. They have just reached singapore.
Now i am looking forward to see what they have bought for me.
Hopefully its nothing ugly or weird.
Now my siblings and I have a rush tidy up.
Not that we made the house untidy. Its just that we want to make it more tidier.
Though we swept the floor in the morn alrdy.
Now my sis sweeping again. While I fold clothes for everyone and put it into the respective places.
Then I clear the dining table. Kept my laptop bag, my mp3, my video cam and camera..
Paused...

Continued..
Just came back after helping my parents carry their luggage.
My mum keep siding my brother that both me and sis bully my bro.
Whereby is my brother who never do anything.
My dad just inspected the plants.
The leaves are wilting and my dad got a shock. We nearly killed the plants.
But.. at the side point, there are new sprouts.. Lolx..
From today onwards i am less busy. Yipee.
i can focus on my studies now
My mum said that my dad bought me a leather shoe.
In my heart i was saying this to myself.. What the hell! Leather sport shoe.
Now i am very worried how it might look like.
At first i tot leather oh is it a leather bag.. Then when i heard leather sport shoe!!!! What the &^$@$@#@!!!..
Omg la. My mum bought pig ear home. It is a snack call oig ear.
and it much nicer than singapore one.
And she witness ppl killing cat and ate it.
My mum told me that they ate more than 12 types of chicken cuisine,
And hnd puffis so kawaii
its filled with peanut inside..
better stop here now. anticipate my next post because it will be filled with photos and a clear video of the house i stay in hnd

6th and 7th day of independence

Thursday which is the 6th day of independence.
After school, went ps and walk walk with baby.
He bought a new bag. While I bought two same colour and design ear piece for both me and baby.
His late bdae present. and we went to eat ice monster.. finally.. lolx..

Todat 7th day of independence, fri, had night class. Untold legend is fun.
Today somehow i feel enriching.
It motivates me to study harder. So later on i am going to do inddes article. ANd if its still early, i will study.
Oh ya i failed my ecom test by 1 mark. Argh. Careless mistake or else i will pass. Last min study at least got some result.
Because for ecom lecture, i never listen at all, i am always playing psp. Lolx.
But now i am gg to work hard le. Because common test in 1-2 weeks time.

This coming mon i have a make up night class. Mon i also have internet computing test.
Then i need re do my ecta equiz to get a higher mark. But i didnt jot down the assessment key.
Mat lab needa hand up soon too. So stress..

Dead Beat

4th and 5th independence.

Both days, i had cooked. yes for consecutive 2 days when i still have school and i was worn out.

And i ended up falling asleep on the sofa.n

My bro such a lazy bum. Everything also never do. Today he was suppose to cook.

But he went out with his friends and he still nt back home yet

But anyway, i cooked black pepper chicken with golden mushroom.

My bro say not bad. U cook celery plus crab meat for the 3rd day,

Today i cooked mushroom with celery with crab meat with corn.

Ytd was rushing inddes drawing. 30 in total. till 4am.

Woke up at 7am. Dead beat. But it turn out nice though

Tmr oop quiz.. Hopefully i fare well. ciaos

4th day of independence

Third day of independence, I woke up at 6am. Ate breakfast.

Ate mash potato and drank miso soup.

My sister woke up, and she came out with the idea of marinating the drumlets with miso.

As we have extra miso at home.

I bathed after that prepare, then woke my brother up to go to school.

He like to laze on the bed lor, like my mr ang. Zzz.

Then blah blah blah, went to school with my bro.

Met my dar at the int.

Today long day in school. Industrial design, teacher showed us other students work.

I felt so inferior. I gonna re draw everything and shade..

internet computing gave a a real headache.

Test next week. Oop quiz this week.

Ecta e assessment by dunno when.

Next week inddes presentation. Then prepare for article presentation.

So today which is tuesday going to rush everything.

Morning have to buy groceries. Because sis cooked ytd cause both bro and me in school.

Today menu will be steam egg. Lolx. but no more ma you.

The rest see what i a, going buy.

Lastly happy birthday baby.. Muackks. Love you.. Old old de baby

Hard work is al worth it

First day of independence, my siblings and i cooked bittergourd with egg, Beansprout with minced meat and potato salas. Of course with rice and clam soup.

2nd day of independence which is today.

Woke up and prepared breakfast for my brother,

do a bit of laundry. Then bathed.

Then gideon aloysius came over. So the guys including my bro waited for both my sis to prepare finish.

Then headed to pp ntuc to buy groceries.

Of course, half way there, my sis have to rush home and keep the laundry because it might rain soon.

So randolph, gideon, aloyisous, bro and I waited for sis to come.

After my sis arrive, the guys went to play lan. My sis and I continue to shop for our groceries.

And our dinner for today, celery with young corn and bean sprout, egg, and western luncheon meat.

Same thing with rice and soup.

Su po called, my brother picked up and su po asked for me.

Chatted with her for a short while. She cared about us. She is so nice.

Dont know why my sister and bro think she irritating.

I rmbed once she brought me on a school bus to fetch australian students from the australian international school. And I often went her house and went out with su po. She brought me over to the opposite of my po po house and bought me the one that blow bubble.

Got one time, i was small, i went up to her house alone to find su po.

Reminiscing those happy memories. Ah hua yi is gg to give birth on jan 14. Bo miao and bo kim dunno when.

I agreed with my sister that household chores never seem to end.At least we tried to make the house clean. And manage to keep those plants alive. Went to take 4D and toto paper also.

My parents told me they bought tops for both sis and I. My sis and I were both worried.

Because they have weird taste that we might not like.

They bought baby tops also. jeans too i think if i never heard wrongly.

Think baby have to worry too.

Got to bath now and wash the laundry and revise my studies, Have to sleep early and wake up early to make milk tea for my brother for school. While i have to make bread for myself.

Hopefully I can wake up. Somehow I like independent.Though i would be real busy. But guess it experience that counts.