I Miss You

The channel u show 野蛮师姐 was a touching one. It just teared me.

Grieving over the loss of the loved.

While I was watching, I was pondering.

What if my life story resembles the lead actress.

I can't hug dar daR anymore, I can't lean on his shoulder anymore.

I would be remorsed. Perhaps I would be the same as the actress, turn to sucide.

Now I missed dar dar alrdy.T.T

He is just so sweet loving

I like his smile. Whereby I detest my eye.!
I like this pic of me. Look kinda fantasy.
me and alina
Alina purple vein hand
Seriously I think long fringe suits me better
It look like a war had started with "little fat boy"

Its happening this few days.

Super worn out. Stress level on the notice.

MOre projects, test and of course the deadly common test is pending.

Deadline rush.

But ain't I glad that at least I could understand parts by parts of those module that I had.

Though can't say I'm good at it because I am not.

At least I practised hard.

Weekends is my special exlir, to success.

This sem I aim to score at least a 3.0

I just have to work super duper hard.

I can say I've shown an improvement in my attitude towards study.

Patience is a virtue. Don't rush things out. Stay calm and look out for solutions.

Instead of whining away which ain't do any help.

Show your understanding.

It just gonna make it right for me.

And of course 10th month anniversary for 小笨蛋&大笨蛋。

Just love him so much that I could hug him all day long.=).

Well I'm sure he would like it too. Smiles*

Hardwork Really Pays Off

I'm beat, worn out not because I was being a good girl studying my head off.

I was playing games at the viwawa site, shockwave and y8 instead.

I grew tired of these games after some time. Certainly, yes, I've no patience.

And what shock me is, my mother.

If I stayed up late, normally she would nag me, and screeched my ears.

But not today. What a surprise!

Looking at the time now, by right I should turn in, but NO!

I am going to be a good girl, I will head for my maths first, then indec.

Hubby should give me a reward for my determination. =).

I want to eat potato salad. Hear that, Hubby?

And I want it hand-made.

Bored, Moodless

Finally weekend is here, Got to mug for maths test and Indec.

So stress. And there's much more school work to be done.

Oh well, have to accept this fact.

I'm famished now.

My Own Dreams

Finally done my traffic light software, programmed into the circuit, yep and it's working fine.

So I have 2 weeks off for that lesson.

Which also means I have 3 hours break on wednesday. SOunds great ain't it.

Report had been handed in, so now my team aim is to present a good presentation and of course a powerful and convincing slides.

Lab test is coming up,Indec test is also coming up. Cost accounting project is here.

I was pondering why year 2 had such many project and stuff to do.

All the deadlines are getting on my nerves.

And plus this makes me more frail than ever.

I need my own time seriously. Just like always I love staring into the space

not building castles in the air of course.

Is reflection and plans for my next aims.

My friends all know Jia Hwei do reflection for a living.

But till now, I'm still wondering what life in for me now.

I want to go abroad to study to get a medical cert.As local governement or private does not have.

This is my dream since the day I know what are my plans.

Many I have considered, " Marine Biology", " Laboratory Researcher", " Neurologist". All the occupation that I've yearn and interested in are all abroad.

My parents and relatives are supportive. They think that I should pursue it.

But.. friends should know who had absolutely objection to it.

With that, I don't know what my future lies for me.

I don't want to be working in an occupation which I had totally no interest.

In my mind, I have a lot to pursue. All these makes me happy.=)

But ya I'm useless, the decision can't lies in me.

Disappointment

On Monday, Vesak day.

Went out with my SWEETHEART.

He came my house to fetch me.

SWEETHEART wanted to eat BOTAK JONES.

SO yeah, we headed to AMK. And I sort of lost the way?

Because I had only been there once,

I'm not that type of human being who is good in directions too.

Yeah, and I got SWEETHEART perspiring all over,

I ordered Coujan Chicken once, so I wanted to try out the Black Pepper Chicken

SWEETHEART wanted to try that too.

And when the waiter ask him where he was sitting, do you know what he answered him!!!

He said: There, the table where there is a SHORT GIRL!!

I was like how can he describe his girlfriend to this particular stranger.

Can't he say something nice, like oh did you see that cute girl over there?

Urgh. Never Mind. Next time I describe him as see that yuan yuan guy there? Lolx. Suits him since his name is call ming YUAN..

Think that he would be mad when he see this. Oops. I still love him anyway.

After that we went to catch "What Happen In Vegas" at AMK HUB.

Though Iron Man and Speed racer, and Doomsday are missed, but I'm glad we caught that movie.

It was hilarious. and touching. I was literally touched at some moments.

It was so sweet. It' was like it was the happiest thing that could happen to a human being to find their part of love.

Yes, Love IS Sweet. Though bickers, never ending quarrels happen, misunderstanding, jealousy.

But that's all part of it. YOu will find it silly to bicker over all little things which make us so cute? Lolx.

and despite what ordeals, it's matter whether both can solve it together.

Accepting flaws, understand each other. don't ever give up the things you like to do or change yourself that is not you.

In a R/S, comprehend each other. Trust, Honesty, Respect.

Lolx. Stopping on my crap. Lolx. After watching the movie, went shopping. Lolx

Bought eyelash curler as my household one was damaged. And eyeliner since I broke one on monday.

Lolx. Head back to sengkang for BUBBLE TEA!!

Lolx. Same routine always. Lolx.

Then head back to punggol already.

Tuesday, 21th May

Went back to school for last discussion.

And everything done. I declared MISSION ACCOMPLISHED.

Thanks to the great team members I had. Nice working with them.=)

And as usual he missed school.

And ya, that nightmare came, that freaking letter.

No comments. Disappointed of course.

To think been ordering him to sleep early, making a curfew, hasn't been a help at all, Anyway I demolished the curfew cause our terms of curfew clashed.

After discussion, went to find buddy buddy, Daryl.

Went serangoon, to eat that MUSHROOM CARROT PIE.

Still as delicious as ever. Then head to compass to walk or a while.

Bought SWEETHEART the stud that he had his eyes on.

He is damn sure elated. Which I think he should be.

And last Good news, I had A for my lab test.

Anticipation

Ytd had a long chat with ah hui.

Though it seems so weird when there's a change in ah hui.

I get fine along with peeps that had this "past time"

But ah hui, It just seems so weird.

She was always the one reminding me not to even ponder about it.

what can i do? I've no idea.

woke up super duper early to toast breakfast for my family, yet none of them is awake now,

Got this chance to blog and also continue with my report.

Darn. Even on a public holiday, study never fail to interfere my break.

What can I complain since I know year 2 is tough. That's what I've heard.

I was wrong apprehending that poly life are such a chill out. Cool dunk~.

Totally regretted it. How I wish I could went back to sec school to memorise all the theory which i think i have much more confidence than all the formulas?

I know it's just a part of my wishful thinking.

Later go dating with ben dan. =)

I want my creamy chicken at pasta mania. or is it call chicken bolognese? Forgotten already.

Do you know what I like about ham?

Such a random one. I like the chewy feeling and it just got so addictive that I wanna chew more. =)

Worn Out

WOke up at 12pm on saturday morning, slept at 8am on sunday morning.

Why> Because I had been working on the report!

This had been going out for several days already.

I'm totally worn out. I'm going bonkers and perhaps I could just faint of exhaustion.

But I guess my report, my part could finish today after i return home from slacking with ah hui.

I can do it! It's been weeks since i last slack with buddy due to my tight schedule and all the project rush.

Glad now I'm loading off some burden, thus i could meet her. =)

Worn Out

Ben dan coming my house to do his part of comm skill.

Despite me turning in for the day at 8am, I had myself pull up from the bed at 12pm.

I'm so worn out. Yawning away so frequently.

I felt like my head could drop onto the table and my eye lid will start to shut.

and i would be snoring away. except that i don't snore in real life..

Son going to ask me about web design. Hope i remembered.

Wish I had the software again for web design. It's all gone now.

If I had that, perhaps it would a help for ben dan.

And I just mix BOH green tea with honey.

It just taste so awesome. Great match.

I just want you to understand

His hair is so bouncy

Waiting for alina at the toilet after night class
There she is..
The clouds are magnificant
Guess which is me
I think I look more prettier when i was young

Trying to act ugly.
is there any reason why our mouths are crooked?
Just trying to ease my boredom
I didnt know brenda was in the pic till she told me.=) Am I or am i not turning the knob?
Botak Jones-American Food. Hot Stuff*
An article on how to interpret what a woman said
Tian Xiang's Fish and Chips.
My Chicken Coujan

The hang outs~
The menu..
Pretty Brenda
Stupid one big one small eye
Can see that I look tired from my eyes. Yawn~

late updates.. This is the pictures accomodate from monday til wednesday.

Hectic is all i can describe my life now.

Just like yesterday at EG2163 lab lesson.

Everything started to go wrong. My wave form was incorrect.

And I corrected my 7 segment 7 times and check my wave form one period by a period 7 times too.

I was seriously so irritated and frustrated.

I was like thinking, why the hell this happen to me. For goodness sake.

I was going to break down I guess.

When finally this miracle appeared in front of me. I done it.

Phew~. And when my class were ready to go,

that ben dan rather stay with his friend, than coming back to the class and carry his stuff,

So in the end I carried two laptops. and two bags on my own to the canteen.

Quarrelled, but still no initiative. He realised his mistake but yet he was still with his friend.

Need to stay awhile because his friend and he didnt met for a long time.

I was like what the hell with that logic, am i his gf or what.

Even my classmates were piss off.

But nvm, everything ok now, except i don't this to happen again. It dampens my mood drastically.

After having our lunch, we went to a tutorial room and do the project circuit,

Have to thank dba for helping me to put the components, and raymond for soldering.

and advance thank to you for helping me to wire wrap. He promised me to wire wrap for me.

My team and I have our comm skill discussion.

Divided the job already. So just need to wait then collate together,

and do some last minutes amendment, check whether is there infromation missing so on and forth.

Stressed~.

Next week have to rush my decoder. and now i have yet to complete my EG2120 tutorial 4.

5.05am in the morning, my mother awake and she nag me for not sleeping.

But in fact i slept from 7 to 12. its like more than enough for me.

and that ben dan slept from ard 8 to now like 5am like that. 8hrs, hope he will wake up in time for school.

Had a talk peacefully with ben dan. Told him tliat i want my lifestyle back, just because i have him now doesnt i have to change my lifestyle and my usual routines

Ever day since he ask me to change a lot of stuff, though i listened but in fact deep down i was reluctant and this really make me breathless.

I was really stress out, i feel like im in a cage. the things i like, yet i can't dare to like it.

But this is me, the things i like to do are part of me, my friends everything are part of me.

I enjoy going out with buddies, chill out catch a movie, singing, so on and forth.

Do you know how it feels like when i can't do that anymore?

When i'm telling him all these, i was going to tear i felt really sad even now, im typing.

though everything is settled, but still to think of it, i am really very down.

I know this is a big sacrifice for him, i know the reasons he have to do that, though giving me back my lifestyle, i guess he might be reluctant in the heart too.

He might not be happy,

I just cant find any solution just that i know that i cant breathe anymore.

stop here, ending this tearful post. ciao

happy days ahead always

Just some dumb picture of me.
Manage to keep myself balanced on the bicycle and took this.
I seriously love this picture. So artistic.
His stare are deadly. Beware.

Lala
Some boredom, so I took this picture
Does it look like I had another head growing out. Duh~
He's just too engrossed in smelling my hair.
Was supposed to meet that ben dan at my house ard 4 like that.

yes, once again he overslept.

Then finally he woke up, he prepared and head over to punggol to fetch me.

Headed to compass to walk, ben dan bought another ear stud and his zippo wit.

then went to the night market and had frozen hot chocolate.

Its milo plus chocolate ice cream sitting on the surface of the liquid.

and with chocolate sauce, plus chocolate sprinkles and cream.

Fattening. LOlx. But it was good.

After that, ben dan bought a small bag. and we went to blk 204 void deck to wait for ben dn friend, wx and jobelle.

Then met up already, we took train to boon lay.

Somehow we got lost, and ben dan friend, yj and serene came to fetch us.

Huge crowd gathered at serene house.

We ate, and this two little girls ard the age of primary school?, tap my shoulder.

I turned ard with surprise, and those 2 girls said hi to me.

I was like hmm do i look like i know you??

But still i smiled and wave to them.

Told ben dan, he teased me saying that i look like their age that's why the girls said hi to me.

I was so sad, despite wearing not like some primary school kid?

Just because of that freaking height of 145cm.

Argh! After eating went downstairs.

ben dan wanna drink. I was totally like what the hell..

Actually was totally piss off. Cause he said to me once that he will onli drink on chalet?

he just keep asking and asking. It was totally a turn off to my mood definitely.

I replied him if he wants to drink just drink, though my heart was totally ironical.

He drank in the end. he offered me too.

I turned it down.

Just said to him next time special occasion it's not a ban for me to drink too.

It's just to be fair.

and that special occasion i was waiting is juan hui birthday.

this year can't possibly give her S.H.E stuff again. Don't know what to get for her.

bag? nope, she got a new nike bag.

Necklace, her mother gave her on recently.

I know, a hp pouch. or soft toy. a pig one.

Yeah. So next week i have to search for it.

A nice pressie for my bestie. =).

Not side tracking, after a while went back to serene house to eat fondue.

OMG LA!! FONDUE!! Was yearning for it my whole entire youth.

Just so tasty. lolx.

Stayed at serene house till 1 plus, then yj father came to fetch us.

ben dan took wx keys to the bicycle.

lolx. alighted some where near wx, bendan took wx bicycle.

I sat on the bicycle and ben dan pushed me to punggol.

hahax. so sweet.

May everyday would be a better day

Saw me? That is how I look like when i am in year 1 sem 1 with that nerdy look of me.

I dread that the fact i'm still short.

but however i think i had a change in my fashion sense perhaps. lolx

still, my complexion and those eye wrinkles are hideous.

never mind im still working on it.

darn, raining heavily now, gonna have bad day for me with all the shivers and chills.

detest that. Eww~.

heading to do my homework hope that i could finish by 6am.

But one important task to be done, i had to pick out tops and bottoms for the house warming party this evening.

such a meddle some, cause i seriously had no idea what i want to wear.

Bring water bottle and making sure i did drink sure helps to save cost.

i save more money than usual.

No snack too. I;m so darn glad about it.

gonna save more than $50 this month..

ho0ray!!! and i'm looking forward to may 1st.

Then that ben dan would be able to save more money.

and bring me out on saturday without complaining he had his finance tight.

I'm still waiting for my iron man. and i would like to search for the tako ball store which one once located at raffles shoppin centre.

now it had been reallocated, i have no idea where to find that store to get my double cheese ball plus extre cheese.

I'm so addcitive and misiing it. Where is my tako balls? Sad*

I'm exhausted

Quite a contradicitng post actually.

I sat down and ponder quietly at one corner.

I felt the stress piling up, i felt my body was weaker and fragile due to exhaust.

I felt I'm always slpy due to insufficient sleep.

School project - Comm skill report, accounting(coming up),Micro p project

Test- Maths, micro p continual assessment on ac,dc,induction motor

hmw-micro p tutorial, data tutorial

it seems little but actually you will never know the difficulty in it and the focus we had to put in.

crucial grades given. Part of the per cent of the gpa.

how can we not take seriously about it.

No matter how tired i am, how stressful i am, i still did not give up.

Cause i know after i done finished one by one, it also means lesser burden every time.

Classmates was right, year 2 is hard to go by.

and some more ben dan studies are a worry too.

tried my best to help in whenever i could, so that he won't get zeros in any of the projects or test.

I seriously need a break. Have a kit kat.

I just happy

Finally coming to the end of the week.

Perhaps tmr meet up with comm skill grp mates to have further disucssion.

New grp matess, i'm sure we can work well together.

I want the software for adobe photo shop.

Hubby had been coming over to my house. lolx.

like ytd stayed till midnight cos we had been rushing for his creative inno project.

and today he came over to give me honey red tea. lolx.

and my mother teased me of my pillow in front of hubby.

and he laughed. Hey my pillow smell nice ok.. hmph..

so sickening.

Today school was fun, was at the canteen crapping with alina ray brenda and of ocurse desmond.

Desmond was humorous. and i beat him for saying im short and that i scared away people that's why nobody want to come into the lift.

Rawr!!! And behind the data com class, ming hong and desmond was acting gay. lolx.

and they had caps on the same way just like brothers.

And when they came into the class meow was hugging desmond. Omg.

And i got bullied by kk. I shouted for grace. Wahaha.

and alina slapped my butt during maths lecture.. lolx.

and one thing jia xin said that i agreed is that we are too stress till my class people are going bonkers.

hahax.. lolx..

darn

Still wondering why ben dan love that fishball on my face.? duh~

School fine. Except every week i had that darn freaking maths test.

And project had to keep an eye on the progress.

Perhpas tmr might be rushing down to sim lim to buy the components and adapter.

if that ben dan is willing to accompany me of course.

my famished stomach never fails to irritate me.

and it emptied my pockets.

seriously have to be more thrify as i can be.

means no snacks, no drinks. just meals sufficient for stomach.

argh. have to start carrying water bottle to school.

Eww. it's so heavy. lolx.

when is it your turn?

Been a long time since i've updated.

Been busy with project, school work.

upcoming test make me feel so lost i guess.

Today went out with hubby.

Firstly we went compass to have our lunch,

then headed to bugis to find his lighter.

Then walked ard then he went smoke

headed to amk to eat at ah mei cafe to try out the nasi briyani recommended by a web that advertise sumptous meals/food.

to me, the gravy was nice, but the rice was too grainy.

then chicken i like the texture of the drumstick, it was delicious.

the marination was good, but the chef fried it too long till i can taste that its a bit charred.

though the appearance didn't tell.

After that went to fair price, bought smth for the damn wrinkle below my eye.

Then ate mr bean ice cream.

Been addicted to it. Just so tasty and so heavy.

then we went home.

But i still yearning for a movie. Sighs*

and i want to try the authentic american food.

and i want hubby to plan the day out instead of me.

it's so tiring. Sigh*