Worn Out, A Break Pls!

Hectic !!!!!!!!!

Just went to collect my new specs.
Finally a small frame.
This time I am really going to take good care of it.
No more scratches. =)

Oh ya, in the morning, my mum accused me of theft!
I am darn piss off.
Just because I went to the toilet in her room, she didnt see me,
only saw me closing the door,
she accused me alrdy.

Tuesday I had no lessons, but had to go down to school to have team discussion.
Lots of ideas.
30 sketches of ideas generation is possible.
Ideas are good. We contribute a lot.
Just that we are stuck at the ppt, because we are not sure which part are we supposed to present till..
I love one of my ideas about the history of car remote.
Because we are supposed to present how this product came about
So i guess we must start frm the beginning till ppl start to innovate..
Cool uh~
We alrdy know what our final design would be, just that haven finalise it and sketch it out.
This saturday meeting up again to start discuss and finalise and do our ppt.

After discussion, I accompanied baby to his lecture. In the end, I was listening and helping him write a lil of the notes. Lolx.
I purchase one top online, to replace my other top at home with 4 holes.
baby suspected that my wardrobe has rats in it. Zzz.
Espirit, yet its easily torn. Zzz.
This sat gg to meet up with the blog owner to pay.
Then wait for 2-3 weeks, then wait for my top to be delivered to my house.

Going to buy a tee shirt for baby online too. For his upcoming bdae.
Now i am scrimping and saving..
Hopefully by this sat i can save about 13 dollars. then slowly save about 13 dollars by early nov.

Busy Busy Busy

Super duper piss off with my dad.

Blah blah to hell with him.

Scold me LJ, i also know what is that.

Or is it he don have that's why must say out..

Pity him.

Anyway I got new specs its arriving on wed afternoon.

The optician rebond his hair..Zzz I prefer his curly hair because it look shorter.

The optician is from sp engineering too.

Chatted blah blah blah..

Anyway i mislead him into false analysis.

He thought i might had added +- 50 because i told him i had to strain my eyes

Then he do a eye check on me. everything perfect.

Then he beginning to suspect something alrdy.. He look at my specs and laugh.

Those scratches naturally will make my eyes strain. but glad it didnt increase.

He said my old specs which is the current one the price drop to 150 alrdy.

Last time i bought it for 200++.

After one year dunno how many months drop to 150. Nt bad.

Means this series of specs is attractive to the customers

anyway tonight i will have DJ MAX 3 to play. Yes its the latest one.

Gideon download de. Bro tell me he downloaded for more than one day.

Bro bought a new shirt, from messy industries. Went with colin.

I think bro went out with colin too frequent. Now bro dress sense so similar to colin nor.

Dad bought xbox 360 fable 2 for bro. Cause bro wnats it and also he had completed fable 1 alrdy

And i am playing with bro tonight. Need to make my character then play multiplayer.

I still haven play my halo 3. ZZZ rotting alrdy.

sian this sunday realtive gathering to celebrate my cousin dunno his name de one month old at sebawang.

and also bibi ah gong birthday.

How have to run 2 sides. Argh. Everything is stepping on my toes and getting on my nerves.

Though sebawang and yishun just one stop away (mrt).

Why everything so hectic.. Tmr team discussion at 1pm at school lib.. so sian..

online shopping.. got the urge

I am so ______ with myself

Didnt go to po po house.
Because I was staying up late to rush report.
So my dad ask me not to go, and he gave me money my own lunch and dinner.
My report finally at qns 3. Though qns is easy, but i still have doubts whether the frequency is empty.
Tonight will be rushing through hopefully can do till qns 6..

I got ang bao from my grandparents alrdy.
But... Its still so long....
Is something gg to happen that they want to give it early?
Impending bad news?? Hopefully not.

I am so slack this sem. I am so disappointed in myself.
Tonight after watching hsm2. I gg to do report, study maths and do A2.

Tmr needa wake up early, looking forward to my new specs. This time i am gg to take care of it,
prevent it from getting scratches.
I will try my best.

I am so worn out now, I slept in the morning and woke up at 12 plus.
I dont want to laze in the bed, and wasting my precious time.

Gg out to settle my stomach soon and before that return lib books.
ciaos

Busy

Though these balls are of different colour, but they are one of the kind.
the more greenier 0ne shld be baby, he much kinder than me.
While the white and green is me, because I think i been a bad person n this world.
I dont see myself as "myself" anymore.
Sometimes I dont really know who i am.
I just want to be me. the me i am happy.

I done my sketch , i have done my research.

Now its just left the team discussion and the ppt.

and our speech.

Probably on tuesday.


Report for Ecom project still at qns 1.
I am going to rush it out.


Maths A2 tutorial yet to be touched.

Quiz 2 for ETM, yet to revise.




And my dad finally making a new spec for me.

My lens are full of scratches. I had trouble copying notes.

Have to keep looking at brenda notes.

Making new specs on monday.

I will just choose a simple design, simple colour.

Just want to be plain me.

Oh ya smalled frame too.

But the old spec I will keep it safe. Because it meant something to me.


Have to plan my break nicely, so that i can finish my school work on time.

as well i have time for myself, my friends and my baby.




I am sorry for flaring up, for being such a hypocrite.

But I just cant stand the way u treat other girls.

I admit I'm sensitive, dont you too?

I didnt meant to trip you, and make you bang your head on the wall.

I hope your head is okay.








Raindrops fall on my cheek.


or is it just my humble tears rolling down too?

I hate liars

School been hectic,
can't catch up.
Because I had practically playing psp in class.
Addicted to Harvest Moon.
Gosh, guess I will try not to bring psp to school.

This sem module is a total nightmare.
I have one project report.
One project design and ppt.
Maths A2
Quiz 1 for Electrical Test and Measurement which is tmr.
Quiz 1 on week 5 for maths, AP and GP.

I worn out everyday.
I am so looking to this weekend, then public holiday then the night study break.
Total 4 days break for me to finish the report, design and ppt and maths A2.

Hopefully I can endure and score well. Gambate.

Lastly he lied to me again.

Bad day

I so freaking hate one of my grp mates.
No discussion no team work, no research, no development.
Just because he love his drawing out of random, he literally want us to str8 accept.
But he miss out the basic fundamentals.
I doubt he ever took o lvl art of dnt.
No planning, with decisions so random, the whole team are gg to be dragged down.
argh. I feeling like killing him. so self proclaimed. argh..

Sigh

First day of school was hectic I guess.

There's work given for internet computing.

Then today maths homework whole of A1.

ZZZ. I completed maths. But some questions I left it blank.

Internet computing yet to do. But re copied the notes.

Ecta was tough I guess. Because I forgotten my ae foundation.

And my ec foundation. Zzz Have to work real hard this sem double hard.

Hopefully I could cope. This few days havng insomia again.

Tmr having classes till 6pm.

Lab almost all the way. Tedious. Friday night class.

Just wanna tell my dear boy,

russell is russell. you is you.

Now I only love you not him.

Dont compare yourself with him.

You both are two different person.

Though russell and I are still friends.

But it does not mean I will go back into his arms.

So have confidence in yourself.

I only love you, yes you!

Dam it!!!

I hate 甜甜圈！
U still owe me 3 补偿！
Since its small matter I guess I wont waste my time informing u!!
no more one sided effort from me!!!

Its a Happy Happy Day

Hahax, my dear boy wants to look shuai in camera

I am 100% sure my mr ang looks better in short hair. Right?

Trying to act si wen with my sister specs. Lolx.

My mum has this very long and old pencil which is very very long

He is too elated to see me. lolx

My boy looks like wolverine. Lolx

2 puffer fish. puff* puff* puff*

I cut my fringe to prepare for a new start. I mean new semestral.

Today met dar dar to accompany me to cut my fringe.
Then we ate at pp. Bought bubble tea.
and mine was like ZZZ so sour. OMG!!!
I love baby's bubble tea. Ribeana ice.
Regretting not to order that.
Then we went fair price. I bought 2 box of ribeana sweets.
Since it is melemaine free I guess?
Now everything I choose have to consider whether it is safe for consumption.
Then headed home. Short day, but yet happy.
Finally took pictures with him. with his short hair that looks better than his long day.

PISSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!1

When baby was in this position I ask him to hold and took a pic of it.

So charming. =)

Today met my dear boy at compass to eat.

Then headed to nyp to buy school books.

Along the way to school,

saw one teenager attempting to commit sucide.

Firefighters had alrdy prepare the mattress.

Fire fighters tried to talk to him.

thats what i saw.

Bought the books at nyp alrdy,

took bus back to compass.

The teenager haven jump yet. oh ya the teenager is a boy.

this time lots of ppl crowd over there.

opposit the flat, reporters were there taking photo.

Seriously this is the first time I saw such a scene.

Teenagers now a days shld be optimistic.

Like i have said optimistic dominate over pessimistic. Right?

Reach compass, went walking ard, my dear boy bought multi plug.

Because auntie want. Then saw baby cousin, xiao wei.

As i am hungry, baby and I went down to the food fare.

My dear boy bought yam paste, wile me shark fin soup.

Then we smuggle in mos burger, because we are having dinner there too.

Yam paste is so yucky.. But I love the lotus nuts. Hehex.

And the soup that I bought, hmm taste average.

After that we went home.

Me, upon reaching home.

$10 to eat both lunch and dinner is definitely not enough. Compass food court had been temp closed down.

so I had only fast food left to choose.

I had no choice but to use the money to buy books to eat.

Its excusable right.

But no, my mother blame me for eating.

I was famished, why cant I eat.

Next time I give her $10 to eat lunch and dinner see whether she will complain. The drinks also included in the $10.

I am gg to be 18, but why my pocket money is same with my brother who is only sec 3.

Why my brother need so much money for.? I am freaking piss.

Just because my parents have fav on my brother.

My parents complain that I nvr do household chores.

Then what for I wash the toilet pack my books all this, tidy up.

Are they blind or what.

They rather spend money on themselves, 4D, and feng shui.

So stingy. Keep donating money , why, to increase chances of striking 4D.

Dam it. So fake.

When my ah ma still living in our hse, my mother nvr even kneel down to pray to the altar.

once my ah ma leave, then start to be addicted to 4D, she started praying.

What the freak is that. So fake.

I bet if my ah ma come back stay with us, my mother wont even go pray.

They even bought books that can deduce what their dreams is about.

Once they dreamt about a number they quickly go buy.

Everyday buy, one time bet $10.

Now the bet gets bigger and bigger.

I seriously hate gambler la.

Everyday I hear this is the god no, ai yo, i got thought of this no today one, today i dreamt this and that, is it hinting me that it will strike. u see ar last time got this number i add this and this,

got new no come out sure strike.

What the freak is that.

Bored

Obviously I got bored in the middle of the night.

Today nothing in spectacular.

I had cravings for hot piping french fries.

Today will be heading out to school to buy the module books.

Then head to ps.

My boy wanna have a look on roller blades and bicycle.

and Me? Hmm.. I wanna go cotton on to have a last glimspe.

Hopefull I can find something good there.

Twirling

Finally the long awaited pic. Grab it from sheena's blog.
I love everyone of them. =)

Today was just as bored as the predators would wait for their prey to appear.
I am still viewing my yakitate japan.
Yakitate is certainly awe-inspiring.
How I wish I would have the fighting spirits like the characters in the anime.

Today I packed the books that baby will be taking this upcoming sem.
Pack for few hrs because I had to punch holes file it up, sort it out.
And lucky today I have my anime to help me pass me time unknowingly.
I had many helpings .
Meaning I had many trips to the dining table and eat those black pepper udon mee.
Delicious.

I will try to slp early today, perhaps before 2am.
School reopening soon. Have to finish the things I have not done yet before school starts.
Because I will have to focus on my studies once my school starts.

and ah hui, don skip school le. attend lessons hor. dont take chances to slp in the lib.
must jia you ar..

Hehex

My mother say I look old, and say my face is so bony that's why I look old..

What logic is that?

I can't help it. And I look fatigue. I am now yawning away.

Finally met my baby today, went to punggol plaza to eat.

Saw cvss teacher, my ex form teacher MISS LIM PUAY EE.

Goodness, I was totally shocked. But as usual I nvr did say hi.

I fear of teachers. except the ones in poly. Dont know why.

After eating, I went in search of my rose mary.

To think, singapore nvr sell. So nvm then. I will find a substitute for that.

After that, we went to compass to borrow books.

Yes, we went to the library. God gracious, baby finally agreed to accompany to the library.

We both borrowed 3 books. Yipee.

Oh ya I found back my absolute instinct. I so in love in that book.

Initially I felt like borrowing it again, but in search of new interesting books,

I have to forsake my Absolute instinct. So might as well.=)

After that we went walking ard, last stop at 7 eleven to buy snack.

Bump into ah hui. lolx.

Then I fell asleep in bus, nvr say bye to ah hui. Sorry. Too tired le.

Reached home watch my yakitate, nd hei tang qun xia zhuan. lolx

Lastly, my baby look so cute in the picture. he claims he is memerising in that pic. Lolx.

Bored

This is my baby.

So cute right?

Look at the smile. So innocent.

Hahax, okay he is not my baby. Lolx. But he is just so cute.

I cooked my first pot of rice today. Except that my dear boy was guiding me on the phone.

Chinese food is not my forte.

Western, i cant say im superb. But it sure surpass my chinese cuisine cooking skill.

I am so freaking bored today.

I am watching zombie loan, and I finished season 1.

So I am now watching yakitate japan.

I love the show makes me really curious about baking bread.

I nvr try baking bread you know? lolx.

Sigh

I like the picture with olivia with her orange.

Lolx. she was eating the orange she bought at jesse house.

Lolx. It just so funny.

These are part of the pictures I got.

Still incomplete, because I dont have a camera with me anymore.

So I cant take pictures except fromo my pathetic hp.

But i only capture 2. So the rest I grab from olivia blog.

Lolx. This time to celebrate kc bdae.

We went to eat zi char at kovan,

then went to jesse house.

Bought 2 pants from jesse instocks. Lolx. I like it.

Because all along i have been searching for black shorts one that I don have to put a belt on.

Now i have got it, i can search for my tops. Lolx.

Oh ya, my hp giving me probs. I cant receive msg at some point.

Frustrated.

I LOVE YOU

He never smile to me before like what it shows in the pic.
When we took pictures tgt, he nvr smile like that too.
All it was a plain smile without showing any teeth.
he claims he don like to smile.
but what am i seeing in this pic?
its the smile that he will nvr show to me except his friend.
If you guys don believe look at my previous entries with me and my baby pic,
his smile was very different.
Perhaps a smile with no feelings that he was happy to be with me.
but in the pic above, i can see him enjoying very much without me
go to hell with his bad friends who lead him astray.
Seriously I am now very sad, because its always his friends his friends but not me.
even his smile.
I tried so hard to get smth like the one in the pic above, but its nvr always happen to me.
I get those sian faces of him only,
yet he smiled to his friends.
I hate my life.
He used to go over to hos friend house to play game and came back in the morning.
and that is the time i woke up and he go slp.
or he would go out everyday late at night, to play game, mu, dota,maximum tune,maple, either at lan shop or friend house or the arcade.
leaving me alone. neglected.
his friends and him decided to quit on 1st june 2008.
on that day, they all being a coward no determination, they said oh its too fast to quit lets start over again.
and he always his friend, wanted to follow suit till i really angry then he dont dare.
ppl with no determination to quit might as well let smoking take away their life.
then he stress go take from them, told me, and i flare up at him.
then he don dare.
but many month later i still found the cigarette in his bag.
i inquest him.
he claim he throw away on his way back home.
but i dont ven know whether its true.
Then when the next day he had paper, when his friend asked him out, he jolly happily still went out with them even though he knew he has paper the next day.
same, he was out till the next morning, he went to take his paper without a wink.
Friends knowing he got a paper next day should not even ask him to go out till the next morning.
Its equal to that the friends want him to fail his paper.
what kind of jerks they are.
seriously to get that kind of friends, who had no determination and try to drag ppl to die is totally inhuman.
Why keep playing game, and make my baby fail his modules. Make him neglect me.
Make me always alone at home. Want to drag my baby health down.
if you want to die, die on your own, dont drag my baby. I still want him.
Spend your time with your family and other useful stuff.
Waste your energy on some virtual stuff instead of doing smth constructive.

If baby every to touch cigarettes, or play game instead of studying, contact those jerks,
I gonna leave out of his sight.
And he dares to hide anything from me, i nvr gonna forgive him.
So peeps, if you ever see my bf doing the stuff above, inform me.

I finish ranting, its all because that pic,
I not going to take any pictures with him till i see the same smile on my hp camera.
And I am so serious with it.

Baby is sick. Poor baby, his voice sounds weak when I spoke to him on the phone when I reach home.
I miss my baby tons now. Hopefully he can recover faster.
I feel useless when I cant do anything for baby.
I hope that I can be the one he could rely on.
Baby, I love you and he is none other than MR ANG MING YUAN!
LOve you..

Don let this girl be unhappy

Happy Birthday Kwee Ching!!!!

Known the birthday girl since pri school.
She's really a great friend.
Hope she get good results for the upcoming exams.
Jia You!!!

Later will be going out to meet PRECIOUS to celebrate the birthday girl's birthday.
So excited. It seems ages since I last saw them.

Stayed home ytd. My mom was vomiting the whole day.
Can't even go out to search for snacks to make me happy.
My boy only know how to make me worry about him.
I am still a bit upset though.
He rather make me worry than inform me.

Eating 6.7g of dark chocolate a day can reduce heart diseases.
Take that into consideration. One day perhaps I might owe my life to the dark chocolates.
I so miss my nancy drew movie ytd.
Ytd whole day of movies on channel 5. Gosh I love it. Movie marathon

Oprah show today was awesome.
It shows the cast of the show dancing with stars.
They danced real good. Spectacular.
How I wish I can have the grooves and the moves.

Food 911 is a great show too.
The food all seems to attract me.
Only the food from tv shows tend to attract me appetite.
I want a semi D tach with a backyard so I can have a barbeque grill.
But the main truth is i want a bbq grill. Hahax.

And I had my ears blocked these days. Zzz