Welcome 2009!

In a few more hours, it would be a new year. Of course, not forgetting all the new year resolutions that people would yearn for, including myself.

Hmm. What can I say? I just want to have a gpa more than 3 by this semester. To get into the specilisation that I am interested in. To save more money. To graduate from nyp with a presentable diploma. All my friends, family and love to be healthy and happy everyday. My eye wrinkles to be diminished. Scars on my face to be lessened too or diminished.

A lot of thoughts running through my mind now. Dropping the subject about my grades, I dont want to brood over it for now. However I just realised that another project is coming up, Object Oriented Programming project. I would love to score in that one. Perhaps once industrial design is less burdened, I could start on my coding and do the exercises and hopefully get an A.

I'm not counting down with my friends or baby this year. Because I feel like staying at home, and watch teh countdown through the tv, while mugging with the colour scheme of the industrial design project. In total, it's countdown plus work.Fun ain't it?

In 2008, its been an exciting yet full of challenges year. The quarrels between me and baby, the lies that he hurt me. The pressure I faced in studies, the quarrels between my family and I, the laziness I am trying to get rid. Basically I learnt a lot this year. Enriching one. Of course, there are some regrets. But I am not going to brood them, and bring it over to 2009.

I wish 2009 would be a smooth one, with lots of excitement, fun , laughter, happiness.Including for my studies, to make my parents proud of me, to support in my decisions of my future, because I am the first among my siblings to enter the working society if I cant get into a local university.I am trying my best to make them feel that I am actually capable of achieving good results, and it would be consistent unlike in the past. I want to score good in my studies. I guess it would be the most touching moments if my parents were to see me wearing the squared hat, holding on to my diploma on the school stage itself. Seeing their daughter, being mature and independent, they could ease their mind that they would not have to worry about me anymore or worry about my studies, worrying about how my future would be.

I wish in 2009, baby and I would enjoy more happiness in us everyday. Less quarrel of course, I can see baby working hard on his studies. He got c+ for EC, and a B for DnC. It's the first time I seen him having a passing grade for his common test, and a good grade too. I hope he could be consistent. Baby and I would be separated because when I am pursuing my year 3 specialisation, he would be clearing his year 2 modules, I probably would have lesser time to spend with him not forgetting I would be having attachment. And if baby got a different specialisation from me, I cant assist him anymore. he would be on his own. So I wish he would be more independent and hardworking, so that I could put my heart at ease. I am always worry about his studies and whether he could cope and catch up.

I wish in 2009, all my friends would stay happy everyday, their year would be an enriching one. All the best to their studies, and life. I wish them good. I wish precious would stay as united as ever, as happy and memorable like always. I wish ah hui to be able to cope with her work, and hopefully her studies. She would have less pressure, less stress. I wish verdell would retain her beautiful voice and bring more joy to others with her voice. I wish daryl to be less stressful and stop being emo everyday. I wish A5 would stay tgt despite that we are going to be spilt soon to go for our own choice of specialisation. We will not lose contact. We would keep in touch, let's keep it that way.=)

I wish in 2009, my dad and baby health would be better. Seems like they had something in common. So yeah, just hope they would feel better everyday. I wish all people would treat the elderly with respect. Dont abandon them.

I wish in 2009, my grandmother and grandfather from my paternal side would stay healthy and watch me graduate from polytechnic studies, and be happy for me. I wish they would be happy everyday. I wish they could eat better food than all the takeaways they had been consuming. i wish my po po's leg to be better everyday, so that she still can travel with us and look at the finest scenery in the world. I wish ah hua yi would stay happy and xing fu. There is alot to say but I will keep in my heart.

Let's welcome 2009 hand in hand and with a smile guys. =)

Regrets

In school blogging now, didnt have much time these days.
I got my results.
ECTA: B
Internet Computing: A

I am now waiting for my Ecom and Maths.
Sigh.. Anxiety just fillled all over inside me..
I am quite dissapointed. My ecta got a B only. How i wish it was A.
Now i am hoping that my maths could get a A. For this sem i need to get more A than last sem so that i can get a gpa 3.

Last sem i only got 2 A. SO perhaps i need get at least 3 A this sem for semestral exam, and also more B+.
Sometimes I really regret that I didnt work hard during my first year. I didnt realise the importance of studies and the grades till I began to realise and start to regret..

I now worry for my future and grad, whether i coudl reach the minimum credits to graduate. sigh. I want to have a nice gpa on my diploma. Unlike my Os. Hideous to see at all.

Been reading twilight, 4 days and I am reading the last book alrdy. Think my sis was right, it was fascinating. However I am not so crazy as my sis who would giggle and get so excited that she keep laughing. But i sure am looking forward to the next sequel of twilight..

Spending the last day of 2008 with industrial design project. Need to do a colour scheme and draw the inside of the design. Do the prototype. Today got to go biy MDF wood. Perhaps if i got the time start preparing notes for internet computing notes. the xml and xsl is confusing me in some way. I still am brooding over my results esp maths and ecom now. Regrets regrets..

Happy day

Today went out with my boy, went in search for the wood for project. went ps spotlight, but only sell ply wood. So i called my dad, then my dad gave me some addresses.

Before heading to scotts road, went to eat at ice monster had fried beef noodles, and then we ate mango ice with strawberry sherbet. Yum Yum.

Then headed to far east to shop for my last peice of new year clothes, then search for the building 1 scott road, finally found it and went up to handy man store,
bought the wood and sand paper. Finally we made our first step in the model making. which is find the materials. Except the dinosaur haven find the hitch yet. Waiting for him to find only. And i need to kn ow the measurement of his key .

Then we can start the actual measurement, then i can ask my dad to saw the wood to the measurements. Then we can start doing. But one thing we haven start thinking is that the button materials, how to do the button. The color scheme?? But the color scheme is my part. Yet to be done, shall do it over the weekends.

Need to ask the dinosaur to scan the pics into the ppt also. Many stuff to be done. Busy. Somemore 29th of dec is imoending, i have yet ti decide my choice of specialisation. Omg., So fast. How shall my ranking be? I really have no idea. Omg la.

After we bought the project stuff, we went home. Short day but sweet.

Healthy

Merry Christmas All!!! Esp my friends family and my baby..

Things are finally getting better.

Fri gotta go and buy the wood for project model making.

Lucky we are not using blue foam or foam core. Because that is much more tedious. lolx.

I am now collectng recipes so that I can make when I am free. or I want eat healthily.

Got my recipes from the newspaper mind you body. Lolx

Merry Xmas

My aunt made de.


The vege that my aunt made

This is bought by my aunt,, and it cost a bomb

at home while waiting

This is meemee~ Cute right, don care my kuku face. lolx.

in my aunt condo toilet. lolx

my cousin valerie soft toy

my third aunt gave to us

pink colour:my cousin xinyu, green one:shu hui, the the hidden one darren. Lolx

Headed to my aunt condo first, because my dad was late.

Took the cab there, and the taxi driver had a filthy mouth,

I heard the driver scolding what lan ****. And the driver was veru arrogant.

Once I reached the house, first thing i would do is put down the food, and play with mimi.

Then went valerie room, and watch darren play counter strike. Then after a while went out to eat.

Thats when relatives started talking to both me and sis and start questioning us.

After we ate, me and sis rush down to fetch mum and dad. And it was raining. When we reached the gate, zzz ah yi was there alrdy. My dad and mum make us run a wasteful trip.

The food was delicious. eat finish play with mimi again, went back room, when most of the cousins crowded there and watch pi li MIT. and xin yu was screaming here and there. So cute.

mimi was in the room also, lolx she fell asleep in the room awhile. Lolx. da ah yi do some scrubbing on my leg with some face shop, and it was effective, I wanna buy. lolx

da ah yi gave one whole packet of hot cholocate drink, and some beauty products. watched till every relatives went home except my family. Lolx.

doreen ah yi went in the room, and teased aboutht the dog needed braces. Because the breed is shitzu, thus the teeth are naturally outside the mouth. Lolx. Then teased the dog that she needed braces. lolx.

Later at 11 plus, doreen ah yi sent us home. During the journey frm the house to the car park, I was walking. lolx. She was energetic. More difficult to handle than the breed jack russell.

But shitzu is cute. Very obedient dog. The dog lie down beside me in the car, enjoying herself with the air con. lolx.

Hmm, a pity that suyi and ting xuan nvr come. and the funny thing is that xinyu called me kor kor, till i say ni jiao wo kor kor?? the she corrected call me jie jie. lolx. Then she told me she like the princess on the file.

Lasly, merry christmas to all..~

Yum yum

School Girl Style~ Gg to wear to xmas eve gathering.

Breakfast cooked by none other than me

My mum bought this or me, and somehow it has a spicy tingling feeling.

Didnt use the laptop for few days because my bro was hogging onto my lappy almost everynight playing mofunzone..Zzz

Today would be busy, I was helping my mother searching for recipes for tmr xmas eve menu.

Later would be going out with her to buy ingredients and groceries,

then head out with sis maybe bro too to town, shop a lil bit. But I almost broke. I just wanna get a shawl. But i heard my sis that my mum had a lot. So perhaps if one attract my attention, probably will grab the shawl from her. Then I will save money. Wee~

Oh ya i still needa buy one top. And white shorts for goodness sake. Need it to match mostly of my top in fact.

Looking forward to tomorrow gathering. Wee~. All the good food that I cant miss in any way.

Delicious food.Hahax. And the superb wine. Lolx. A little alcohol to match with all the good food s divine, heavenly. Lolx.

Hatred

I seriously hate liars and those ppl who say one thing and do another thing.
___them!

Working hard

Today little progress, I have done one design.

I use to features of the car and make up one car remote.
But this time, I added a display screen. My foldable key still remains.
I use the mitsubishi icon to be the buttons.

Well I think I should do more research and draw another design. Yeah. Gambate.

Christmas tree

Christmas is coming.. Woohoo~.. I am so excited about the gathering. How great if i have a christmas tree at home, with lots of deco, with lots of colourful lights. Bling bling. What a nice feeling, its like the world fill with happiness.

Nvm, think i will continue deco my xams tree at pet society. Lolx.

Santa claus

I watched santa claus 2 halfway, my mum want to watch little nonya. Sad lor.
I love santa claus. Lolx.

After poly grad, i am going abroad with sis and her clique. Wee~. lolx.
I thinking what to wear to the christmas gathering at my relative side. Lolx
Gg swimming, lolx. Yipee..

I want to see mimi..

Today is a happy day

Today i packed my room a little. I put back my books and notes into their respective shelf. Today shall clear more stuff before I head for bed.
I did research for my design. Since the lecuturer want something that resemble the car itself.
I done my research on the front, side, back and bird view of the car. Even a close up on the wheels and the head light.
Hopefully to gain some inspirations.

Tmr, will slowly brainstorm on the design and improvised the old one will the new one. Good luck to me anyway. 2 weeks of holidays, minus a day for make up lesson, minus one day for outing, another day for outing, and another for family and relatives gathering. The rest is for myself to really enjoy.

Somehow I did not brood over my results wondering how did I fare, because I know there is no point crying over spilled milk. However if my results are average or poor, i will do my best to achieve better grades during sem exams.

This week i shall sleep early so that i can wake up early and do my stuff. This sat maybe be visiting the baby. Lolx.. I miss mimi.. Lolx. She is so cute. Just in case, mimi is my cousin's dog. lolx.

I want to go swimming. Mr ang wont want to go with me, he rather go with his relatives and that is the day he lied to me ma. So dont bother to ask him. Perhaps shall go for a swim when at my aunt house.

I gg to watch finish the 家好月圆。Lolx. damn nice. Hahax..

My day was ruined

Ytd went out to buy part of my new year clothes. one for new year and the shirt for school.
cardigan for school or go out wear.

and also went to eat steam boat. That place damn deserted la. So so so rundown. And the food was not fresh till i had runs after i reach home.

next time all the food will be planned by me. I wont want to follow mr ang sugestions anymore. Make me have runs.

overall ytd was not a happy day esp when i was shopping. Next time i don care what mr ang thinks of the top i want buy, i will just str8 buy according to my own wishes.

next week, mum going to give me money to buy more new year clothes. I need one more at least. wonder what am i going to buy.. I still haven get my jeans because ytd mr ang woke up late again and make me cant go and buy my jeans. Consecutive 3 days he woke up late. first 2 days i dont want to go out anymore because he's late. the third day which is ytd, for the sake of my new year clothes, i called and woke him up. if not for the sake of my clothes i alrdy sleeping at home. and will not end up sleeping less than 2 hrs.

I hate ppl who is not punctual.. esp applies to date.

Baby~ Doggy~

This little baby girl is going to call me 阿姨 when she grow up. Lolx. so kawaii. I heard the story about ah hua yi. Lolx. She nearly give birth on doreen ah yi's car. Lolx. Today when i woke up i rush and head to the hospital with my parents.

My mother said that I am smaller and lighter than the baby. Lolx. When we are going off with su po, da ah yi called. So we waited for da ah yi then go visit again. Lolx. Then went to white water there to eat. Doreen ah yi then came down to eat with us also. The adults chatted while I was laughing at what they said. lolx. I want go taiwan. Lolx. Hopefully they faster plan a trip with me included. Lolx. I ate chicken chop. Cos da ah yi say the western nice so i order lor. And it was really nice. The chicken chop is so juicy.

Because i want to play with the dog at doreen ah yi house, so after we ate we went up. The dog is so kawaii. She is so obedient. She keep smell my feet. Lolx.

My mum say if the house is cleaner she will rear a dog. Yipee. Lolx. My sister bought me a long sleeve tee at malaysia. lolx.

寂寞的夜晚

我的心里好闷。我好难过。我希望现在有好多颗星星出现在我的面前。五颜六色的。最好像糖果似的。从今天开始，我要我的生活充满着快乐和欢笑。虽有烦恼，但不碍事。我的PROJECT呢，还有时间。但现在我有一个很重要的任务。我不可以做一个懒惰的人。我要用最短的时间打扫我的房间。待会儿，我和明源要去拍拖。不知为什么，我开心不起来去。可能待会儿看到他心情会好一些吧。最近我们吵架多了，心情也不好受。但又不是有意的。我好烦啊！好了不要说那伤心事了。

弟弟失恋了。他这几天多好像闷闷不乐的。我的妈妈，也很担心。阿迪啊。不要难过了。一颗树倒不代表整个森林都到。

伯母借给我一部连续剧的cd，名叫作家好月圆。好看极了。简直上瘾了。好了话不多说，我现在要一边看连续剧一边收拾东西。晚安了，我的darling。希望我们不会在吵架了。

I am happy yet I'm not

I so much wanted to watch forensic heroes II. But firstly I have to shop to buy new year clothes. My bro doing that now with his friends. While I have yet to do that. I still have industrial design. I need to improve my design, re shade everything. Need select the materials. Should we use blue foam? Mdf? I am stress again. Nvm, think i will start this thursday. Monday I still need to go to school for industrial design make up lessons. Whereby peeps are having their holidays. Argh!!

Sis in genting now. Whole room to myself. Wonderful. lolx I can watch my dramas.. Wee.. Lolx.. However i will als make use of the chance to pack the room. yeah. Lolx. Neater and cleaner room . therefore I iwl wait for the arrival of the new hi fi set once i save enough money. Haha..

Yumm

I just find this pic just too cute. I dreamt of bobby au ytd night. baby is jealous. Wahaha.

I wanna go hongkong. Omg, i so so want to go there. Now is break, it means i must start on industria design and start shopping.. Wee~.



Tmr going out with mr ang. Lolx. He want to see his naruto xbox game.



Oh ya, i managed to get it near perfect for my egg. Those like mac one. Just continue practising and I will whip some nice dishes. I want to learn how to marinate a nice steak. Lolx

Sheena Birthday and Pub experience

Ytd is sheena birthday. Met up with chiko at clark quay at 6. Lolx. She said she cant recognise me..

Headed to find rp, kum wuen and olivia at the jap snack . I saw a crew doing candies at the candy store. Omg, the candy smell so nice, and look delicious. Then jess came, we went up to MANHATTAN FISH MARKET. Waited for sheena, leo and kc to arrive. While waiting for kc, we cam whore. Lolx. Then order time, my orders were creamy seafood pasta and chocolate milkshake with whip cream on it. Yum yum. After we ate finish, we didnt leave anyway. We stayed there playing some group games. I remembered one of the forfiet clearly. Kum wuen kissed the mirror and he then told the service crew and reminded them to clean the mirror afterwards. Lolx The service crew played along, and said I will definitely clean. Lolx. The platter prawn seems delicious too.

After a while, the cake arrive and we sang a birthday song. I was so full after eating half a piece of the cake. We ate from 7 plus till the closing time. Went for a walk. Took group pictures. Then went to support sheena bro busking. Then we walked around, and stop at the turkish ice cream stall. And I saw a pub being raided by the police, there were reporters. It was such a commotion indeed. And we stop at another pub just beside the capsule jump dunno what is the real name though. There was this lady singing in a pub. Her voice was so powerful. Then we saw the launched of the capsule. Omg, it was so scary and exciting at the same time, then sheena and leo left.

me, kc, chiko, olivia, rp and kum wuen went to a pub which chiko went before near clark quay. Initially wanted to go to boat quay there, but the pub kum wuen went was crowded.. so we just head to chiko there. total we ordered 3 jugs. But the last jug was shared among kum wuen, chiko and olivia. The ladies working there was friendly. however i feel so weird.Chiko face was very red, and after we left the pub at around 3 she was singing lolx. Olivia was high. Lolx. We took the night rider i alighted at near rivervale plaza there and took a cab. Rp was such a sweet girl to ask whether i am on the cab alrdy. Thanks gurl.

Oh ya, my sister and my dad say that 6N did come to punggol. However i see the directory it didnt say so though..

Still Mugging

I am restless. I just taught my baby ec. Yet i only touch a little bit of my ecom. And i am still at freaking tutorial 2. I am sure to burn the midnight oil again. Yes, once again. Though ecom is only tested till chapter 4 however there is loads of formula and loads of calculation. Just good luck to me, hopefully i could finish in time for bed for sufficient sleep.

Hopefully i can score well too. Jia you ba.

I Love You

I am now mugging, burning the midnight oil just for ecom. I just started chapter 2. Everything is so rush. But what can I do for last min revision. Just because this sem has no break before the common test , everything is so shag and the modules content are much difficult, I had no choice but to rush everything.Wonder how my common test grades would turn out to be.

Obsession with good grades for common test had just dominated my mind utterly.. I feared I might turned out what ah hui had said. Jia Hwei! Stop thinking about grades, maths and ecta paper was over, no pointing brooding. No point crying over spilled milk. I hope by scolding myself that I would be less obssessed with it. Hope so~. I am trying to take it easy. However expectations. Sigh. SInce young I set high expectations for myself. Yeah, I am just torturing myself. Take it easy girl~.

On a brighter note, I am missing my boyfriend, my da ben dan to give me hug of comfort. However I still dont know what are the plans for today. Its been 5 days since I seen him. I just want a hug from him, cry in his arms, vent on my frustrations by crying. Perhaps it will help me to de-stress.

Currently had been singing to de stress. My classmates should have heard me singing xmas songs in school. I am _____tired.. Sigh. Got to sleep soon after I finished a few more pages. Night everyone, night baby.. I love you though we quarrelled..

I need love

Today paper was freaking difficult.
However I manage to complete almost all of the chosen qns. Just that i lost 5 marks because I left it blank. Others? I am not so sure. Hope i dont get any careless mistakes.
On the way home, I bumped into ah hui. So we walked to pp, she got her takeaway while i got waffle for myself before heading home.

Sometimes, life is unpredictable. Things doesnt go way, neither that it went smooth.
Facing a lot of pressure, stress and unhappiness. I hope I would score a good grade for maths. Let it be at least an A or a B+ or a B. I am more than satisfied.
I am really worried about my grades, my gpa. Would I able to go into a specilisation I desire?
This question has been twirling in my mind since the day i had the briefing for specilisation.
Insufficient sleep, making me drastically worn out. What I receieve are only care and concern from classmates and friends. There is somebody missing. Yes, it is my baby.

Right now, right here, it seems like without his care or concern, doesnt change anyting in my life.
Perhaps because I got used to it since the day he neglected me because of his friends and games.
Now i only want him to make it up for me for all the pain and hurt, the tears i lost for him.
At the very least, make me a happy girl, a girl who feel loved which i dont feel it now.

One more paper left, after that I've got to rush out the improved designs of the remote, and improvise on the drawing which i shaded previously. Got to choose the color scheme for the final design. Plan a date to set off to buy the material for the remote and start planning out.

I really need a break from everything, I anticipate the last day of the common test. However my schedule doesnt allow me to take a good break, outings, assignment project.

I am working hard.. U?

Time now, its gg to be 5am soon. I have yet to turn in, reason? I am still mugging hard for maths.
My baby had turn in alrdy. Hope he had a good sleep before he wake up and head to his grandma house. Time is constraint in my hands, Lots of revision and studying had taken up my time. I didnt have a good sleep since the day i started my revision. I didnt spend much time with my baby too. Well, hope he understands. I am gg into my year 3 soon, i really need a good gpa. I dont want to end up into a specialisation that I dont have any interest. I will score well for ecta esp. 6 credit in total. I must score well this sem. I just need 0.6 more to get a gpa of 3++. I dont want to get just 3. I want more than 3.

Ppl may say i pinning high hopes on myself. But no this is my dream, this is the goal i need to more forward to. I dont want to live in regret anymore. Since the day I did badly for my Os. I dont wish to fail anything anymore. I want to get good grades. Ever since i went ito poly, I worked hard. I didnt fail maths anymore. I didnt let my maths teacher down either. I wish one day if i bump into my maths teacher, i would like to tell her, because of her encouragement i passed my maths since o lvl and its still consistent now.

So right now i will perservere for maths, i wil put in my best effort in maths.
So now i will go back to my maths. I am currrently in fourier series. And i left fourier transform.
After that I can proceed to tutorial and the assignment I did before. Lastly past year paper.
Good luck everybody..

stress

Saturday, went to meet marilyn at outram ten headed to lakeside tgt.

Having a grp study at ray house. But both marilyn and I gt lost while finding ray house.

Walked for more than an hour i think. However its a good thing that much calories will be burned.

Haha.. Finally ray and chao hong came to fetch us. Lolx.

Headed to a coffee shop and ate our lunch. The laksa mee was chewy, was nice. but the soup seems bland.

After we ate finish, we went to ray house.His house was neat tidy and very white.

Started, and after few mins i got stressed up while trying to do the past year questions.

It was so brain cracking. Omg I dont wish to fail u know. I needa get an A or B at least.

We stoped at ard 6, ate our dinner.

I ate one bowl of ba chor mee and popiah.

The popiah was so so, because there are not mych veggie.

But my mee was more than ray one.

He complained. lOlx. same stall but different quantity.

Marilyn ordered dry you mian.

First time heard of it. and the sauce they added with the mee was smth like zha jiang mian.

Lolx. Special uh~

then headed to boon lay, jurong point.

Chao hong wanted to get a new water bottle.

There was a lot of bkd. But nvm, we went walking ard,

Saw a lot of sales gg on, not bad.

walked till 9 plus, headed home.

bumped into esther mei. Lolx then in the mrt,

We saw a guy holding some anime weapon. Shld be cosplay.

First ray alighted, then chao hong, then me. Bumped inot celestine at compass.

headed home and i was all worn out.

Maths a headache.. Sigh..Hopefully by tonight i can study finish all. Hopefully...

Church Bells are Ringing

dar today made me mad again.
He really took me as a fool, by assuming that I cant understand the instructions given.
I may look blur, but i am really attentive and my understanding of english is perfect.

But nvm, since its over, i dont want to brood over it.
Finish tutorial 8 alrdy. But i yet to know how to draw the frequency curve and the bode plot.
Ray will be teaching me later on.

Now i just need look through and revise couple of times more, ensuring i know how to derive the formula. I must get a b at least for ecta.

This sem i must get at least A and Bs, hopefully there are more As than Bs.
I need to get a good gpa to get into the specialisation that I had my eye on.
So much competition. I must really work hard.
Even i have lesser sleep or i miss my nap. I would fully make use of the time i have to study.

Perhaps tonight one final revision for ecta then i will proceed to maths.
Since maths is on tuesday means i have ard 4 days to study. Maths is more tedious however less topic. Anyway all the best to me and baby. I want him to get a better grade.
I want him to know without those friends who does not think of his studies, he can do better.
Without those online games, he will have lesser distractions and more time to study.

I hope he will realise the true meaning of forbidding him to play game.
Perhaps till he knows how to manage his time, stop being lazy and study hard, he may play his online game once again. Now i just don want him to get expelled because of his low gpa.
Its all for his own good. I am treating him well, but why does he treat me the opposite.
He showed little carea nd concern. He only care whether any guy was interested in me. or other minor stuff that doesnt even concern him.

LHH wedding this sat. Not gg,How ever anyway congrats to LHH for finding his love.
Miss ang was really beautiful They make a lovely dovey couple.

Wonder when is mine?

random

I seriously love bobby au. My close friends all know he is my idol. Lolx.
Today went to school and study. Waited for that bf of mine at the same time.
Now i am at tutorial 6, and i have done the first past year paper 2 questions.
Progress still slow. This friday is the paper. I left less than 2 days to study.
Two more tutorials to go. Hopefully by today i could finish.

Now i want save money for a nice hi fi set.
Yeah.. I wanna work. after sem exams.
I wanna buy cds. lolx.

i am worn out

I practically slept on the table for more than an hour till my mum woke me up.
Today presentation was bad i guess.
The dinosaur was mumbling all the way and was so soft spoken. He cant prononounce simple words.
Because of that, the teacher comment was did you know that everybody was falling asleep?
Though the lecturer said that i was slightly better than both baby and dinosaur. But i ain t proud of it at all.
Because I know overall, it would be pulled down.
How i wish it would be graded individually. So that i wont be dragged down by dinosaur.

Today, a tiring day indeed.
Night class. So stress out. I am now revising tutorial 3 finally. Then i shall proceed on to tutorial 4 after i done my revision.
3 days left to ecta paper. And i got not much time. Jia you ba jia hwei.

Tmr heading to school real early in the morning to study tgt with baby, ray and grace. However we still have not book a room yet.
How i yearn to laze in bed, but i cant. I have much heavier responsibilities to do.
A gpa of 3 this sem. Jia you. 3 papers tgt, i can do it.

Bump into seow ting li, yeah my secondary close friend too. We chatted all the way at the bus stop till we separated. I was mentioning jian hao, then ting li told me that he was on the bus too. Zzz.
I nvr notice him. Lolx.

Guan hong gg into army on jan 12. Congrats., lolx though there is nothing special about his hair because he now also considered botak. lolx. Ting li told me that something happen to zi hui family.
But didnt prompt further. Because i roughly know what had happened. Anyway i just wish all my friends well.

Good day today

Went to cut my hair short. Because I got sick of long hair.

Today am in urhs for time, needa do my speech and revise. I am still at ecta.

I only finished till tutorial 3. Now i am gg to revise all over again till tutorial 3 and make sure i understand.

But i needa do speech first.

Now this blog is just me. I feel much relaxed with nobody viewing.
In due time, i will re publish it.
Ming yuan hide things from me again. The 3rd time..
I am very sick of it. I am really tired. I wish to free myself.
I want freedom. I just want my studies. I want to go overseas for attachment.
To let go of myself.

Better go do my speech now. night everybody who are sleeping early.

Depressed

Why am i always the one putting up with his lies, with his insensible actions.
He claims he is sensitive, but did he think of me?
Wont I feel sensitive too?
I can say he treat other girls better than how he treated me.
He lied to me twice.
He dont like me to go clubbing but yet he went to pubs and went to a club for clubbing.
He dont like me to drink beer. I didnt drink.
But i dont like him to drink yet he drank.

I dont like to be tickled, yet he always tickle me.
He dont like his nose to be touched, i touched it he yelled at me.
He don allow me to sleep on the bus but he never did care whether i was really tired.
He always create a disturbance by playing psp while i was paying attention to lecture.

He neglects me because of his friends.
He always go over his friend house to play game or ton.
Resulting less time to spend with his family and now ended with regret.
He lied to me twice. hide the truth upon inquesting by me.

He only know how to condemn me, and nothing sort of praises come out from his mouth for me.
Tasmanian was the only gift i received from him.
He always complain when i want to go town.
He insulted the girls in singapore.
He insulted my friends even before knowing them.

Why am i the one who suffered the hurt.
Ray thought that we still look okay today even after i told him what i have suffered.
Because he still see me holding hand with my bf hugging him.
On the surface we looked on, but deep inside, hidden lies burrowed from passerby.

After so much promises, he still did the same thing. I really hate myself for being such a wimp.
To think i still buy him such an expensive stuff for him. Went to search high and low for the file he wanted. I can buy my own tops for a matter of fact but why am i so dumb to even buy things fro him.
Am i for his beck and call? Am i a dog for him to inflict pain on me.

Where is the happiness you promise me. If not i found out htat tag perhaps i wpould be hidden in his lies once again. Promises are meant to be broken and emptied?

anyway i am changing no. Will let my friends know in due time. And perhaps i am making this blog private..

I hate unfaithful guys!

Went out to meet ray first at ps.

We went to find a place at star buck enough for 4 person to study.

Then chatted a while before i went to buy drinks for both of us.

Ray helped both of us to take care of our bags.

We chatted again and studied then while waiting for marilyn and alina.

Ray keep looking at girls. Zzz. then i ask him he is come study or look at girls lolx.

But somehow was studying halfway, i got distracted by one caucasians.

He looks cool with that shade. And another caucasian was naked upper body at ps there.

But i didnt noticed till ray told me.

Then alina came first. She cut new hair. Then soon marilyn came.

I only studied till tutorial 3 yet to finished.

At 5 plus, alina left, then ray marilyn and I stopped studying at 6pm. And we chatted before we separated.

But marilyn and I went walking. She accompanied me to go walk. Then i suggested that we settle our stomach. So we went dunno what jap restaurant.

She ordered dunno what sotong as side dish which is superb, and also tom yam ramen.
I ordered silver fish and spicy ramen.
We took a long time to eat finish because we were practically chatting. lolx. After we finished eating we continued to chat. Had a lot of laughter.

Then we slowly headed way home. Lolx. had super great time. Thanks ray for explaining those formulas that i am confused about.. A lot to study and i need extra revision after i done all the tutorial to let me understand more.

Tmr staying at home, chiong all the way. Decided not to met any unfaithful guy.

%^$@^#*@^

This is what I found in a girl blog tag by that unfaithful ming yuan
He claim that he and the girl are sisters.
So, is that what a bf tag to other girls.
Then shouldnt i claim that that guy and I are brothers and do the same thing.
Utterly piss off. ____him la.
That why i said he love to make some actions or tease girls to attract their attention.
At least i didnt. Even ppl look at me, or had a crush on me, i dont do anything to attract their attention.

___ don even know english. I ask him where is he now.

He tell me reaching. Who in the hell will know where he is, didnt even reply anytihng related.

Perhaps he trying to lie to me again. Ppl normally will say i am now at blah blah blah.

He seriously don know how to msg in detail always trying to avoid.

Who knows there is any more stuff that he lied to me.

Anyway don let a ______ _____ ruin my happy mode.

Had fun in night class, chatted with alina about the past and friends

lolx. when i was in the loo i thought alina intended to peep into my cubicle. Lolx.

But she was just want to tell brenda that the cubicle i am in has a loose door.

Brenda wanted to try to peep inside too. Lolx. Lucky i was finished by then . Lolx.

Brenda suddenly got high and was at the back laughing. Lolx. But dunno whats the commotion about. Lolx.

When i alighted from 83, my sister called and somehow we cant communicate due to phone probs. Restarted phone, finally, bump into my mum. and we walked very long.. Zzz. Saw wild mushrooms, my mum keep talking about hnd and hk. I wanna go there next time with my siblings pehaps.

Don want the ___ to go. Rather have OWN FAMILY AND RELATIVES to go with me and tour around. So fun, and i can do anyting i want.

Tmr gg out to study with just ray alina and marilyn. The rest cant make it. But nvm, ray saviour at least stronger than me. maybe after that go meet my sis, or if not i go alone ya just me alone to go kinokuya and buy her dictionary and also top, because my sis gg to borrow one of my top to KL. so needed buy a replacement.

I dont want to buy bag anymore. Because its a waste of money. and i don see a point that i shld buy.