How boring can my life be?

WOke at up at 5 plus am.
Can't get back to slp anymore.
So I decided to wake up and slack my time off.
These days I could only sleep up to a maximum 3hrs.
And thats it, I can't get back to slp no matter how hard I tried to tire myself by counting sheeps, persuading my subconscious to be tired.
It's draining all my energy, yet it still null.

Now I am seriously beat,
but... I watching online movies to make me feel more slpy,
so I could sleep soundly.
I was greeted by the morning rain.
Bad day uh? Hinting me something?
I am blue enough this morning.

Initially I wanted to watch mister ajikko.
But crunchyroll has only up till episode 3 I think.
I search for other anime websites, but nothing came up.
Is the anime too outdated that no one would want to upload?
I tried watching to grow with love again.
Then I realise youtube does not have the series anymore.
Why it's seems that my life is opposing me.
When I wanted to watch mister ajikko,
it gave me false excitment as it ended at episode 3.
I went on to watch to grow with love,
it totally dampen me as the users remove it alrdy.

What to do? I spend my day reading newspaper.
I found nothing interesting.
I ate 2 bowls of porridge,
because my mother didnt expect me to wake up so early.
She only prepared breakfast for my brother.
Then she just mention she would buy take away for our lunch.

There is an adrenaline rush to go out, step out of the house.
Do something that I like,
Ice skating, go to the beach?
Listen to the rustle of the waves, flapping onto the shore with no mercy.
enjoy the breeze, and make whoshing melody into my tiny ears.
Enjoying the sun which brighten up my day.
Or shall I go town alone, looking for my fav snacks?
Wander around the busy streets, with only commotions between numerous grps of ppl,
till my voice was unheard.
Or shall I head to the library in search for interesting homicide stories?
Spend my time reading several books in the library before I began my search for books to be borrowed back home.

I am just a boring girl, I started thinking how y 18th birthday would be like.
Boring? Pathetic? Lonely?
18th birthday was suppose to be fun.
But I don't feel like celebrating it,
perhaps to liften up my spirits, and stop anticipating any celebrations that causes disappointment.

Enough of my rants of the day, ciaos