I LOVE YOU

He never smile to me before like what it shows in the pic.
When we took pictures tgt, he nvr smile like that too.
All it was a plain smile without showing any teeth.
he claims he don like to smile.
but what am i seeing in this pic?
its the smile that he will nvr show to me except his friend.
If you guys don believe look at my previous entries with me and my baby pic,
his smile was very different.
Perhaps a smile with no feelings that he was happy to be with me.
but in the pic above, i can see him enjoying very much without me
go to hell with his bad friends who lead him astray.
Seriously I am now very sad, because its always his friends his friends but not me.
even his smile.
I tried so hard to get smth like the one in the pic above, but its nvr always happen to me.
I get those sian faces of him only,
yet he smiled to his friends.
I hate my life.
He used to go over to hos friend house to play game and came back in the morning.
and that is the time i woke up and he go slp.
or he would go out everyday late at night, to play game, mu, dota,maximum tune,maple, either at lan shop or friend house or the arcade.
leaving me alone. neglected.
his friends and him decided to quit on 1st june 2008.
on that day, they all being a coward no determination, they said oh its too fast to quit lets start over again.
and he always his friend, wanted to follow suit till i really angry then he dont dare.
ppl with no determination to quit might as well let smoking take away their life.
then he stress go take from them, told me, and i flare up at him.
then he don dare.
but many month later i still found the cigarette in his bag.
i inquest him.
he claim he throw away on his way back home.
but i dont ven know whether its true.
Then when the next day he had paper, when his friend asked him out, he jolly happily still went out with them even though he knew he has paper the next day.
same, he was out till the next morning, he went to take his paper without a wink.
Friends knowing he got a paper next day should not even ask him to go out till the next morning.
Its equal to that the friends want him to fail his paper.
what kind of jerks they are.
seriously to get that kind of friends, who had no determination and try to drag ppl to die is totally inhuman.
Why keep playing game, and make my baby fail his modules. Make him neglect me.
Make me always alone at home. Want to drag my baby health down.
if you want to die, die on your own, dont drag my baby. I still want him.
Spend your time with your family and other useful stuff.
Waste your energy on some virtual stuff instead of doing smth constructive.

If baby every to touch cigarettes, or play game instead of studying, contact those jerks,
I gonna leave out of his sight.
And he dares to hide anything from me, i nvr gonna forgive him.
So peeps, if you ever see my bf doing the stuff above, inform me.

I finish ranting, its all because that pic,
I not going to take any pictures with him till i see the same smile on my hp camera.
And I am so serious with it.

Baby is sick. Poor baby, his voice sounds weak when I spoke to him on the phone when I reach home.
I miss my baby tons now. Hopefully he can recover faster.
I feel useless when I cant do anything for baby.
I hope that I can be the one he could rely on.
Baby, I love you and he is none other than MR ANG MING YUAN!
LOve you..