Depressed

Why am i always the one putting up with his lies, with his insensible actions.
He claims he is sensitive, but did he think of me?
Wont I feel sensitive too?
I can say he treat other girls better than how he treated me.
He lied to me twice.
He dont like me to go clubbing but yet he went to pubs and went to a club for clubbing.
He dont like me to drink beer. I didnt drink.
But i dont like him to drink yet he drank.

I dont like to be tickled, yet he always tickle me.
He dont like his nose to be touched, i touched it he yelled at me.
He don allow me to sleep on the bus but he never did care whether i was really tired.
He always create a disturbance by playing psp while i was paying attention to lecture.

He neglects me because of his friends.
He always go over his friend house to play game or ton.
Resulting less time to spend with his family and now ended with regret.
He lied to me twice. hide the truth upon inquesting by me.

He only know how to condemn me, and nothing sort of praises come out from his mouth for me.
Tasmanian was the only gift i received from him.
He always complain when i want to go town.
He insulted the girls in singapore.
He insulted my friends even before knowing them.

Why am i the one who suffered the hurt.
Ray thought that we still look okay today even after i told him what i have suffered.
Because he still see me holding hand with my bf hugging him.
On the surface we looked on, but deep inside, hidden lies burrowed from passerby.

After so much promises, he still did the same thing. I really hate myself for being such a wimp.
To think i still buy him such an expensive stuff for him. Went to search high and low for the file he wanted. I can buy my own tops for a matter of fact but why am i so dumb to even buy things fro him.
Am i for his beck and call? Am i a dog for him to inflict pain on me.

Where is the happiness you promise me. If not i found out htat tag perhaps i wpould be hidden in his lies once again. Promises are meant to be broken and emptied?

anyway i am changing no. Will let my friends know in due time. And perhaps i am making this blog private..