I Am So Scared.

Recently, very busy. Monday is going to be the big day liao. 8.45am must reach there liao. Then about 9.30am start. After kenneth say all the procedure, my legs turn jelly and I was trembling. What have become the brave jia hwei. I really feel nervous and scared. Tuesday and Wednesday also got. why need three days? Wonder the culprit got his own defence lawyer a not. Scared sia. Must speak in english sia. My English is like so poor. So as my pronounciation. I got no confidence in speaking sia. I scared my voice will tremble which i think that will definitely happen. I must bring him to justice or else my friends, sister will not have peace. Then still got another matter bothering me. I am helpless when she is so obstinate. Why can't she heed my advice and still go care about the guy's future. That guy is so irresponsible lor. Ai yo. Advice her untill nearly spit out blood.
Haha. Serena is going back to guides. Yeah. My advice for her never go down in to the drain. Never waste my efforts for her. Haha. Got my result slip, my result is not that fantastic. Teacher say with that kind of result, not to say ITE, even polytechnic i also cannot go in. Shucks. I now heeding teacher advice. Don't touch the laptop!!!. So what i got the HOD award with my results like that. Also no use. Why I have change so much. I am not what I used to be. I now should reflect on myself. Why I have become so lazy, tend to give up easily, get distrated easily and tend to daydream a lot. Is it the doing of my past when I always hang out, never listen to my parents words? Keep going out till late at night. I think should be. from now on, i will not go out till very late, go out and have fun only on some occasion exceptionally. I will not let anybody who is bad or don't feel like studying influence me.!!! I am myself and no one can change me for I am who I am. No more peer influence. Only competition in studies to outshone the smarter ones. I want to prove my father wrong. I am smarter than him and I am not stupid and I am not a dog.!!!