Study or Play?

Yesterday got caned again.

This time they had gone too far off.

Why am I born into this unfeeling family?

Where is the love I am suppose to get?

Where is the love they suppose to shower me with..

I feel so lost, I feel abandoned.

They claimed that they understand me.

But the truth is they don't even understand me

Always forcing me to do the thing I detest.

Pressurizing me.

I just hate them lots.

Today went to art, I was very disturbed by yesterday scene.

I can't focused.

I just blast my ear drum with music.

Then later, decided to keep myself occupied by helping others wrapped their boards.

when mrs quek saw my workpiece.

As my art theme is one domestic violence.

She asked me whether I am feeling disturbed

Of course I did not tell them the truth, I lied through my teeth

The class were high esp doug on the coach.

But things changed when we were on the way back to the school

What we saw, made us feel inferior and demoralized.

Our art compared to other schools were just like dung?

I mean like theirs are fabulous, better than ours at least a hundred times?

So on the way back to school, the ambience is so strict

The whole coach was so quiet.

Joey said that she felt crying.

I would also cry, but then I had no tears to drop.

My tears are dry from all the crying for all the caning.

After art, went to meet karen. By the time, I met her, I was famished,

My stomach was growling.

I can't control myself at the sight of food.

So when I reached Kovan , I bought myself Medium fries.

Then heade to daryl house to study and listen to music.

Karen and I had dedications.

Lol
we ate pizza.

ACtually we did not study. all the rewst of the time we were singing to our heart fill

Went home.

Just coop myself in the room

Staying far away from my family.

Tomorrow going to Mr Lee consultations then go for miss yeow.

Then later go far east to choose daryl tie with karen..

LAstly, my words are My heart for my family are dead.

Don't talk to me about kinship ...

They don't place a position in my heart and soul