I am so down

Nobody at home again. Why am i always the one who will be left alone in the house? My parents will ask my siblings to go out with them but not me. Why? If only my grandparents are still here in the house, then i won't be feeling so abandoned. I want my grandparents to move back here. But can I? I can't. This house seems just like a shelter to me rather than a home. I pondering if something happen to me, i will want only my friends to be there for me rather than my family. Cause i know they will only care about the hospital bill first. Example, like when i was in primary 4 i fractured my elbow. They scolded me. Then they took me to see a chinese sehsei only a few days after i fractured my elbow. Do you know how painful it is, still i have to endure the pain for few days. Then when i am in primary 5, i twisted my wrist.I have to go operation. When i twisted my wrist, they scolded me again. They complained to me that why am i always spending their money on those you de mei de. When i fall sick, they will not care for me. They will say i deserve it. Although that is in the past, but it do make an impact on my childhood. Who will want a childhood to be so pathetic. I dont want too. But i have no choice. God says its fated. I must be strong to overcome these.