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I'm lost in time. A tingly feeling of loneliness. Realising that time passed so slow, so slow that I began to lose myself. Thoughts of negative statements flood my mind. Why am I doing here, what am I in the world waiting for. This is what I feel when I was waiting for time to pass. I walked around nyp, walked to coffeshops, stand at the bus stop for the entire 3 hours. From that moment, i felt that I don't belong here. I have to grow up and adapt to this independent life. A new beginning on Monday, will be declared JH's independence Day. With friends on separate ways, I'm on my own. I must stay strong. Yesterday must thank to ming hong and dickson for leading me to collect my book list. BUt in the end, we never buy any book, cause we still have a lot of doubts. Just realised that my class are going to be separated into different classes for tutorial. Now I still struggling on A maths and physics. The division of polynomials, i still figuring out one question. Then Differentiation quite easy. I have no problem with that. I have to work hard. These few days I had been doing A maths, my brother saw me, the he made a comment. He said "when had you been so hardworking, first time see you so hardworking sia". I was like quite true. I dont want any regrets from now on. I don't want history to repeat itself. I have to work hard. No matter how miserable my life is, I am going to be committed and determined and not give up.