Just being paranoid.

My brother now confirm have chicken pox. His whole body is covered with the lotion. Then make me remind of trees. I rmb that some trees will have many patches of white colour on the trunk itself. And my brohter looked the same as those trees. Haha.Lol. Am I bad? Nope, i am just being truthful. Now I dont dare to stay near my brother. I scared i will contract chicken pox too. I am being so paranoid with a little dumb regulations made for him.
Today will be the last day, the day where I will stop all my nonsense. The last day I will have all my fun. Cos I will be copping myself in the room and mug like hell. To be exact, I dont have the confidence. I scared. Cos really one week for me to study is too little for me. So I think I will be a good girl, sleep early wake up early. Study all long, eating while I study might be a possibility too. I dont care, I just want to pass for a good grade. Then prepare myself for the final exam on week 16. Thats all I want to think about.
Now I know liking some one is also hurtful. When time goes by, day passes, pain and a lil bit of jealousy and envy perhaps? inflicted on me can never be described by words nor actions. But I know this results are expected. I also can't do anything. Just pretend that I had a memory loss or treated it as a dream.
I'm so famished now, I haven consume any food except one cup of bubble tea for my dinner. Pathetic, cos I also dont dare to touch any pots and pans. Cos my brother touched it before. I am being paranoid again. Just giving myself trouble, now filled with regrets, should not have been so over worrying. Lol. Now I felt so weak. I want food, sumptous meals. But looking at the refrigerator and the dining table, I only see dusts and nothing more. Yes, there is instant noodles, but these few days I had been eating instant noodles for dinner and supper, I grew tired of it. Plus its unhealthy at all. I dont want to be bald. Thats all for my complaints today. lol. Now got to get back to my starvation time. Lastly happy father day..