working hard

Another setback, once I am strong but imagine when failure become a routine in my life, all those impact all those negative mindset, would I able to take it once more? No.. I break down, I surrender to the fate, I surrender to my stupid brain. I always tell myself that I can do it, but after all, reality just makes me woken up, all the spirit that I was suppose to have just vanished at the sight of it. Pls, stop this crap. This is hard for me to accept it.

What my future lies for me.? Im a person who cares abt pride much as my future. Seriously I dont want to fail any modules. I cant take it when I lost.. Yes, I have high expectations of myself, I want to score higher than everyone. I am obstinate, I have a high sense of pride. I dont like to lose. This is me. And had nvr been changed..

Ytd what had happened affected me a lot, though I still have another chance,the mini proj to help me but would i able to get at least a A or a B? I dont wan to jut get a pass or D, I want higher than that. Why I didnt try harder, why didnt I put my heart in studies, Why I did not honour my words. How am I gg to face myself, till with only hatred and regrets? Now I just feel so useless..

But I will study hard, study my way up to uni to pursue my dreams.