I am now suppressing my emotions.. I dont know what is the matter with me.. But I jus did a grave mistake which is lying.. I told him that i am okay.. Just that i am tired.. The truth is yes, im tired but i am not okay.. I feel very stress till i feel like crying out.. I told him i going home, but in fact, i went to the sengkang cc to take a breather and look at the ae. Look at the book, i feel like i am very dumb, why must i sleep in class, now i cant understand a thing.. Last time i keep saying i will pay attention in class, i will work hard, but in the end, i still like that. then after that i went to prime mart de playground there and sit down.. trying to calm myself down.. then i concluded that i cannot stay like this liao, i really must do something about it..maybe i not taking up any cca already.. Cos i really cant take it.. hope he forgive me.. sigh..