They have no sense of appreciaition

Watched tv. I got scolded by my sister and mother for watching the show and not watching the korean show.

My sister use the hot plate to scald me.

Then I was being called weak by my mother

Then I was being pinched by my sister

My father insulted me.

It fair to them that I did not smashed the television set

Cause I rmb once a person told me that I should give in to prevent more trouble

I heeded

Fine, I scram back into my room, lock the door, don't bother to switch ont he lights

Cried my heart out. tears just keep flowing

Clenched my fist to control my emotions.

But I can't

I illusioned myself.

It helped some way

Now both of my hand are fulled with bruises

Why god is unfair to me

I began to think whether I am their biological child.

It makes me wonder some times

I wished to tell them that they failed as a parent

Now only music is my closest kin on earth

Yesterday watched midnight show call impact tv.

They send out a message to everyone saying that they should treat their pets better

Those poor parrots. Those poor pups..

The 4 pups have no hind legs.

It is inheritence, because somebody who is heartless feed the mother of the pups with rat poison

Thus the pups lost their hind legs because of the side effects

Sometimes really mankind can be so cruel

on the 3rd, is a day that i will never forget.

on the 19th too

it is a day where i am very happy.

It too also a day where i am feeling the worst

I just hope that I will stop thinking and get on with my life.

But I know it will be going to take some time

O lvl is coming, got the support from hendrick, zhi xin, Elton so on and fourth

I don't feel like going to school on monday. Not because of the retreat

Is because its is the 3rd of oct.

Now I am so hungry, did not eat the whole day

Nobody bought take away for me.

I can't eat instant noodles anymore. cause I have been eating too much

I don't have bread at home.

I can't go out to buy food cause now its too late

Never mind, I will just hold my hunger till tml.

oh ya.

Zhi xin said that I have changed.. for the worse.

Maybe because I am traumatised.?

Going to study till next morning later on.

I dont wish to sleep today.